G'evening!!
I'm not feeling so great with this lymph node missing and being told to "massage it" .... which I have been, but it hurts like hell!!! Pain meds don't seem to be touching this, so I stopped taking them and reverted back to some homeopathic methods that I know work (for me anyway). Today I put a Castor oil wrap in the area and applied some heat, and then did the massage thing. Only problem I am finding out is that if I am up walking around, or sitting, for too long (like 2 1/2 hours is what I made today) the pain and swelling become excruciatingly painful. I did a little research last night and will massage with some essential oils to help break up the toxin build up of lymph fluid to help it disperse within my body. (It beats the BFN!!) It is just draining when there are so many other things I could be doing that would be considered productive. Flat on my back with my leg elevated to massage a large "package," as my loving daughter has now nicknamed it, is not my idea of fun. I have one more day to get this down or I have to call the surgeon again on Monday, the day I am suppose to go back to work.
Oh well .... onto some stuff I have stumbled upon. I am not usually a promoter of things I haven't tried, but the following link was within a news article I read today on MSN ... it may not be directly associated with adult stem cell research, treatment, etc., but it is on the same lines in my opinion. Our US Government has held back the scientists of America and until we make our voice one and take back what is ours, we will see no advancement for our once mightier than thou country that not only we, but our forefathers, ancestors, and others have brought with them to make us that super power. We have lost our edge in the area of science. SO ... I am going to pick up this book this week ..... if anyone else should read it, I would love to get a dialogue going. I know I am not the only person who feels the way I do. Too many of our elderly, chronically ill, mentally ill, etc. are being sucked dry when the science to make a real difference is within our reach. I don't get it.....?????? But I figure I will check it out.
http://shawnotto.com/foolmetwice/
Wishing everyone a wonderful evening and a relaxing Sunday (my heat bag is ready to roll again :)
Peace and Light
et
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Hump Day
Morning Folks!!!
I just found this article in my email. A follow-up so-to-speak on the young man who made headlines back in July with the stem cell treatment he had for tracheal cancer. Cool stuff .. and this just makes good sense in my opinion. Let's use what we already have to help those afflicted with these diseases rather than kill us off slowly with high priced drugs, and antirejection drugs will kill us in the end anyway. I guess this is the question I have been asking myself every time I have to undergo a procedure, prescribed a new drug, etc. I try and weigh the pros and cons. How many commercials have we seen on the TV where the statement "serious and sometime fatal effects have been noted." Really, (this next statement is humorous in my opinion), i.e., a gentleman has erectile problems (we see it multiple times a day on media), now, if I were a man, I am not sure I would risk "death" for a hard on!! I know of a couple of men who have taken things like Viagra who have heart issues and suffered a stroke, but lets prescribe a pill so he can get it on at the risk of (yes, this happened) he falls and passes out in the shower afterward. Sorry kids, I see no real sense in this either. There are other ways to alter the physical love part without a pill.
That is my rant for this morning .... lol .... enjoy the read.
http://www.themarknews.com/articles/7180-stem-cell-innovation-saves-lives
Have a wonderful day!!
Peace and Light
et
I just found this article in my email. A follow-up so-to-speak on the young man who made headlines back in July with the stem cell treatment he had for tracheal cancer. Cool stuff .. and this just makes good sense in my opinion. Let's use what we already have to help those afflicted with these diseases rather than kill us off slowly with high priced drugs, and antirejection drugs will kill us in the end anyway. I guess this is the question I have been asking myself every time I have to undergo a procedure, prescribed a new drug, etc. I try and weigh the pros and cons. How many commercials have we seen on the TV where the statement "serious and sometime fatal effects have been noted." Really, (this next statement is humorous in my opinion), i.e., a gentleman has erectile problems (we see it multiple times a day on media), now, if I were a man, I am not sure I would risk "death" for a hard on!! I know of a couple of men who have taken things like Viagra who have heart issues and suffered a stroke, but lets prescribe a pill so he can get it on at the risk of (yes, this happened) he falls and passes out in the shower afterward. Sorry kids, I see no real sense in this either. There are other ways to alter the physical love part without a pill.
That is my rant for this morning .... lol .... enjoy the read.
http://www.themarknews.com/articles/7180-stem-cell-innovation-saves-lives
Have a wonderful day!!
Peace and Light
et
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
More information on Stem Cell status
This site has some pretty good information as to where the stem cell status sits, and covers multiple areas of application.
http://www.ascrnetwork.com/
They are associated with the Cell Therapy Foundation (a link I posted the other day).
Enjoy .... and let's get the word out there, we WANT this!!
Good Evening and a Happy Hump day for tomorrow.
Peace and Light
et
http://www.ascrnetwork.com/
They are associated with the Cell Therapy Foundation (a link I posted the other day).
Enjoy .... and let's get the word out there, we WANT this!!
Good Evening and a Happy Hump day for tomorrow.
Peace and Light
et
WONDERFUL OUTCOME !!
Good Day to All!!
I have some very relieving news just in this morning. On my post surgical follow up appointment, which was bumped up from Monday due to a good sized accumulation of lymph fluid, I was told that the pathology reports did not indicate ANY CANCER!!!! It was like a huge boulder had been lifted off my shoulders, and with any luck, my gut will calm down over the next couple of days. I can't help but believe that the power of prayer, and good vibes in which are sent to me from around the world also plays a major role.
Thank you all for your positive vibes, it is a gift in which I have no real words to describe my gratitude.
Wishing everyone a wonderful day!!!!
Peace and Light
et
I have some very relieving news just in this morning. On my post surgical follow up appointment, which was bumped up from Monday due to a good sized accumulation of lymph fluid, I was told that the pathology reports did not indicate ANY CANCER!!!! It was like a huge boulder had been lifted off my shoulders, and with any luck, my gut will calm down over the next couple of days. I can't help but believe that the power of prayer, and good vibes in which are sent to me from around the world also plays a major role.
Thank you all for your positive vibes, it is a gift in which I have no real words to describe my gratitude.
Wishing everyone a wonderful day!!!!
Peace and Light
et
Monday, October 24, 2011
Is this normal ... ??
Afternoon All,
I have been done most of the day. I didn't sleep well at all last evening, and have been in bed most of the day. My blood sugars have been exceptionally high the past 3-4 days and I spent the morning trying to make calls and figure out why? I have changed my site twice in the past 3 days, usually changing out every 3 days, problem continues. I have had very little to eat since surgery, a lot of water trying to flush out this high streak. I called the pump people this morning, told them of what was going on and the fact that my pump has been cracked and not holding a real charge. I will have a replacement in the morning. In the meantime, I have had to continue with additional injections on top of what my pump should be infusing. I really am at a loss. I also had to talk with the surgeon's office this morning due to a VERY large lump in the area of my incision. I am told that it could be fluid in which will and/or may have to be drained in the morning when I have my appointment and get pathology results. Can you say nauseated??
Ok ... that is it for now, I don't feel well, am going to feed the dog and lay back down.
Peace, Light and a relaxing evening to all.
et
I have been done most of the day. I didn't sleep well at all last evening, and have been in bed most of the day. My blood sugars have been exceptionally high the past 3-4 days and I spent the morning trying to make calls and figure out why? I have changed my site twice in the past 3 days, usually changing out every 3 days, problem continues. I have had very little to eat since surgery, a lot of water trying to flush out this high streak. I called the pump people this morning, told them of what was going on and the fact that my pump has been cracked and not holding a real charge. I will have a replacement in the morning. In the meantime, I have had to continue with additional injections on top of what my pump should be infusing. I really am at a loss. I also had to talk with the surgeon's office this morning due to a VERY large lump in the area of my incision. I am told that it could be fluid in which will and/or may have to be drained in the morning when I have my appointment and get pathology results. Can you say nauseated??
Ok ... that is it for now, I don't feel well, am going to feed the dog and lay back down.
Peace, Light and a relaxing evening to all.
et
Sunday, October 23, 2011
My life is changing ...
.... in some wonderful ways!!!
This entire time period over the last 2 1/2 to 5 years has presented itself with some very life changing happenings. I have lost both my parents, the only relatives I had living out here in AZ, an aunt and uncle, within 6 months of each other; another uncle, a couple of friends, a favorite brother-in-law, and my ex-husband. Each one of these losses came in a way that seemed like it was one right after another without a lot of time in between to get over the loss, to grieve, it was ..... look ... look hard, remember, and cherish all those moments. Good, bad, happy, sad, light-hearted, and deep, like death and dying. I have had some wonderful experiences within these heart breaking happenings. My mother's death will be one of the most poignant experience I may ever have. (I have been working on this chapter for my book). I can't help but believe, she is still with me, and she is cheering her ass off currently, even as life continues to throw it's stop-sticks in my way, i.e., the latest surgery and its still waited on outcome. However, where my health has taken me in just the past 2 years since losing her physically, my life has had some pretty amazing shit happen!!! ..... LOL .... sorry, there really is no other way to phrase it. I believe, I feel, that my life is about to change for the better, in a way that I have no idea how I will deal with it. I am sorry to say, that this experience with the travel expenses, the newspaper articles, the knowledge that I have shared with what some say is a huge deal, I still feel very small. I have been described recently as just someone who can't lie about what has transpired within me since my stem cell treatment, and the people that have become friends and advocates just knowing I "tell it like it is." I have never considered myself a "science geek", but I have always been totally awed by the biology/physiological aspect in regard to the human body. It amazes me some of the happenings the human body can bounce back from. Now ... add the passions of those people put to huge, global difference....??? That is a lot to think about. I read, and I read, and I scan, medical sites, research sites, bio-technical sites, social media sites, news and journals of medicine. There is some pretty amazing research going on in this country, and if you would all be kind enough to check out the attached link and listen to a couple of the little videos in which Dick Van Dyke has volunteered his time ( makes me wonder if perhaps adult stem cell treatment was not a part of his recent spine surgery???).
I want to be part of this science break through, I want to prove if to no one but myself, that I can make a difference, I will make a difference .... and the Angels will cheer!!!! A couple of those folks are with me in my heart, always will be ... because they "got it", they got me, they knew what made me tick, they knew what I dealt with on a day to day, minute to minute basis ... and yet they still loved me and lived life with me and for that I am forever grateful for the lessons in which I learned while they were here, and since their passing. Powerful stuff people, and it humbles me.
http://www.celltherapyfoundation.org/
Enjoy the information on the web page attached .... the science is here, and we need to make it part of our health care now .... not when "they" decide .... for the better good of ALL people.
Have a wonderful week!!!
Peace and Light
et
This entire time period over the last 2 1/2 to 5 years has presented itself with some very life changing happenings. I have lost both my parents, the only relatives I had living out here in AZ, an aunt and uncle, within 6 months of each other; another uncle, a couple of friends, a favorite brother-in-law, and my ex-husband. Each one of these losses came in a way that seemed like it was one right after another without a lot of time in between to get over the loss, to grieve, it was ..... look ... look hard, remember, and cherish all those moments. Good, bad, happy, sad, light-hearted, and deep, like death and dying. I have had some wonderful experiences within these heart breaking happenings. My mother's death will be one of the most poignant experience I may ever have. (I have been working on this chapter for my book). I can't help but believe, she is still with me, and she is cheering her ass off currently, even as life continues to throw it's stop-sticks in my way, i.e., the latest surgery and its still waited on outcome. However, where my health has taken me in just the past 2 years since losing her physically, my life has had some pretty amazing shit happen!!! ..... LOL .... sorry, there really is no other way to phrase it. I believe, I feel, that my life is about to change for the better, in a way that I have no idea how I will deal with it. I am sorry to say, that this experience with the travel expenses, the newspaper articles, the knowledge that I have shared with what some say is a huge deal, I still feel very small. I have been described recently as just someone who can't lie about what has transpired within me since my stem cell treatment, and the people that have become friends and advocates just knowing I "tell it like it is." I have never considered myself a "science geek", but I have always been totally awed by the biology/physiological aspect in regard to the human body. It amazes me some of the happenings the human body can bounce back from. Now ... add the passions of those people put to huge, global difference....??? That is a lot to think about. I read, and I read, and I scan, medical sites, research sites, bio-technical sites, social media sites, news and journals of medicine. There is some pretty amazing research going on in this country, and if you would all be kind enough to check out the attached link and listen to a couple of the little videos in which Dick Van Dyke has volunteered his time ( makes me wonder if perhaps adult stem cell treatment was not a part of his recent spine surgery???).
I want to be part of this science break through, I want to prove if to no one but myself, that I can make a difference, I will make a difference .... and the Angels will cheer!!!! A couple of those folks are with me in my heart, always will be ... because they "got it", they got me, they knew what made me tick, they knew what I dealt with on a day to day, minute to minute basis ... and yet they still loved me and lived life with me and for that I am forever grateful for the lessons in which I learned while they were here, and since their passing. Powerful stuff people, and it humbles me.
http://www.celltherapyfoundation.org/
Enjoy the information on the web page attached .... the science is here, and we need to make it part of our health care now .... not when "they" decide .... for the better good of ALL people.
Have a wonderful week!!!
Peace and Light
et
Friday, October 21, 2011
Rest, Rest ... Rest is boring
Good Evening to All!!
As I sit here, eyes half closed, I am thinking how boring this past week has been. I have done pretty much nothing but rest, I find this a depressing, boring act. I felt great Monday afternoon and Tuesday. I was up walking around most of the afternoon on Monday (day of surgery). Since I took the compression bandage off, I just feel weird, tired, and my hips are sore. I have few bruises. Odd, but it was one of my better surgical episodes, and was all good on Monday. The karma was all around flowing positively. I moved up my follow up appointment from November 1, to this upcoming Tuesday. If I am cleared I will go back to work on Wednesday rather than a week from. I am bored, and at least if I "have" to go somewhere, I will get out of the house. After talking with the nurse yesterday she said pathology reports had not yet been received, but she "will try and have them for the appointment, but he won't let you go back to work until he sees how you are doing." Okay ... I can live with that. I know how to play the game, just let me go and do something ..... I can't do yard work and moving stuff around hasn't been in the cards either. So I will, again, be turning in early with my book and my freshly bathed dog!! Yes, Hillary and I took Maggie into town for some beauty treatment this morning and spent a couple of hours walking around the mall. I kept telling her to slow down as I felt like she was running (she wasn't, I just couldn't keep the pace as my hip area was sore).
With all that being said, things are tight. I don't like the smothering feeling of things being so tight. I am trying hard to just keep an even pace and just let the wave ride. What else can I do? I can only do so much, that which is within my own power, other than that, it's up to the "Big Guy" and, I don't know, the stars? fate? destiny? Take your pick ....
All this news that is on the television is depressing. Missing and abused children, misguided so-called adults, dictators who are dead, and now the UN wants an investigation....Really?? Does anyone really care "how" he died? At the hands of his own people, who HE has been killing for 40+ years. Sorry folks, unfortunately, I see this as the cost of war. Karma can be a bitch, but this would seem to be one of those clear cases of "what goes around, comes around." Personally, I think he got off easy for the destruction and delusional behaviors he exhibited. I wish the people well in a new world, many never having known anything other than that iron fist mentality.
As I lay my head down this evening, I pray for peace, health, and contentment for all in the world. I am a person who enjoys learning about other cultures, religions, customs and beliefs, I wish many more had that same outlook as there is so much to learn, see, enjoy and cultivate. Life is an interesting ride, shouldn't we try and find a way to play nice together, if for no other reason than being kind to our fellow man??
So many lessons to learn, so little time to learn them in.
Wishing everyone a peaceful evening and a joyous, safe weekend!!
Peace and Light
et
As I sit here, eyes half closed, I am thinking how boring this past week has been. I have done pretty much nothing but rest, I find this a depressing, boring act. I felt great Monday afternoon and Tuesday. I was up walking around most of the afternoon on Monday (day of surgery). Since I took the compression bandage off, I just feel weird, tired, and my hips are sore. I have few bruises. Odd, but it was one of my better surgical episodes, and was all good on Monday. The karma was all around flowing positively. I moved up my follow up appointment from November 1, to this upcoming Tuesday. If I am cleared I will go back to work on Wednesday rather than a week from. I am bored, and at least if I "have" to go somewhere, I will get out of the house. After talking with the nurse yesterday she said pathology reports had not yet been received, but she "will try and have them for the appointment, but he won't let you go back to work until he sees how you are doing." Okay ... I can live with that. I know how to play the game, just let me go and do something ..... I can't do yard work and moving stuff around hasn't been in the cards either. So I will, again, be turning in early with my book and my freshly bathed dog!! Yes, Hillary and I took Maggie into town for some beauty treatment this morning and spent a couple of hours walking around the mall. I kept telling her to slow down as I felt like she was running (she wasn't, I just couldn't keep the pace as my hip area was sore).
With all that being said, things are tight. I don't like the smothering feeling of things being so tight. I am trying hard to just keep an even pace and just let the wave ride. What else can I do? I can only do so much, that which is within my own power, other than that, it's up to the "Big Guy" and, I don't know, the stars? fate? destiny? Take your pick ....
All this news that is on the television is depressing. Missing and abused children, misguided so-called adults, dictators who are dead, and now the UN wants an investigation....Really?? Does anyone really care "how" he died? At the hands of his own people, who HE has been killing for 40+ years. Sorry folks, unfortunately, I see this as the cost of war. Karma can be a bitch, but this would seem to be one of those clear cases of "what goes around, comes around." Personally, I think he got off easy for the destruction and delusional behaviors he exhibited. I wish the people well in a new world, many never having known anything other than that iron fist mentality.
As I lay my head down this evening, I pray for peace, health, and contentment for all in the world. I am a person who enjoys learning about other cultures, religions, customs and beliefs, I wish many more had that same outlook as there is so much to learn, see, enjoy and cultivate. Life is an interesting ride, shouldn't we try and find a way to play nice together, if for no other reason than being kind to our fellow man??
So many lessons to learn, so little time to learn them in.
Wishing everyone a peaceful evening and a joyous, safe weekend!!
Peace and Light
et
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
A couple of really good reads ...
While I am napping .... hahaaha ....
I took the compression bandage of a bit ago, took me 20 minutes in the shower due to, in large part, a REALLY bad "haircut!" LOL .... I should teach a class is surgical shave techniques. I think I would call this a "Brazilian-Mohawk" .... (yes, I am laughing loudly)
Anyway ... am a little lightheaded now so I am going in to take a nap and elevate my freshly exposed incision, which looks fabulous. Given the size approximately 3 1/2 inches, it is clean and looks great for 48 hours post-op. My stemmies have had to work overtime in the healing department, however, I feel I still have some going strong.
Check out the two links below. Both incredible reads and the DRI is making progress, but you will see that this man is fighting a loosing battle without our help being held up with the politics of it all. The Wake Forest article is just a touch of what is going on down there and the amazing progress that is being made in the "cures" not just the treatment of symptoms..... and without the side effects, because, again, THEY BELONG TO US!!!
http://www.laduenews.com/articles/2011/10/15/living/wellness/doc4e854cae16d34136207186.prt
http://www.wakehealth.edu/Research/WFIRM/Our-Story/Our-Story.htm
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Peace and Light
et
I took the compression bandage of a bit ago, took me 20 minutes in the shower due to, in large part, a REALLY bad "haircut!" LOL .... I should teach a class is surgical shave techniques. I think I would call this a "Brazilian-Mohawk" .... (yes, I am laughing loudly)
Anyway ... am a little lightheaded now so I am going in to take a nap and elevate my freshly exposed incision, which looks fabulous. Given the size approximately 3 1/2 inches, it is clean and looks great for 48 hours post-op. My stemmies have had to work overtime in the healing department, however, I feel I still have some going strong.
Check out the two links below. Both incredible reads and the DRI is making progress, but you will see that this man is fighting a loosing battle without our help being held up with the politics of it all. The Wake Forest article is just a touch of what is going on down there and the amazing progress that is being made in the "cures" not just the treatment of symptoms..... and without the side effects, because, again, THEY BELONG TO US!!!
http://www.laduenews.com/articles/2011/10/15/living/wellness/doc4e854cae16d34136207186.prt
http://www.wakehealth.edu/Research/WFIRM/Our-Story/Our-Story.htm
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Peace and Light
et
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Surgery went well
Hello All!!
Surgery went exceptionally well. We wait now for pathology results.
I am off to nap and I will update in more detail when I feel a little more alert.
Thanks for the prayers, good wishes, love and friendship!!
Peace and Light
et
PS: A special message to my reader Janet .... I wish you the ULTIMATE best in your outcome!! I will be thinking of you come Weds. morning .... until then rest and relax, you are in good hands. et
Surgery went exceptionally well. We wait now for pathology results.
I am off to nap and I will update in more detail when I feel a little more alert.
Thanks for the prayers, good wishes, love and friendship!!
Peace and Light
et
PS: A special message to my reader Janet .... I wish you the ULTIMATE best in your outcome!! I will be thinking of you come Weds. morning .... until then rest and relax, you are in good hands. et
Saturday, October 15, 2011
A personal request from a reader
Good Afternoon .... wow .... 3 posts in one day!!!
Per a personal request from one of my new readers, I am going to post my email address for anyone who may want to ask questions in a more private mode as opposed to posting on the WWW.
I will do my best to answer any questions put to me at elizatyler5@gmail.com
Thanks again to ALL who read, comment, and I am always open to questions and comments. Stemmies are MY future ... will you be part of the journey? I hope when people see and hear, from real, everyday people the amazing results being seen with this sort of treatment, that there are too many citizens from the everyday walk of life, would rather have this available than medication in which the potential side effects are 5x what the original problem may be ... we have made the pharmaceutical companies billions of dollars, how about we ask for our lives back WITHOUT the side effects and poorly overseen pharmaceuticals to just manage symptoms.
Something to think about.
In good health!!!
Peace and Light
et
Per a personal request from one of my new readers, I am going to post my email address for anyone who may want to ask questions in a more private mode as opposed to posting on the WWW.
I will do my best to answer any questions put to me at elizatyler5@gmail.com
Thanks again to ALL who read, comment, and I am always open to questions and comments. Stemmies are MY future ... will you be part of the journey? I hope when people see and hear, from real, everyday people the amazing results being seen with this sort of treatment, that there are too many citizens from the everyday walk of life, would rather have this available than medication in which the potential side effects are 5x what the original problem may be ... we have made the pharmaceutical companies billions of dollars, how about we ask for our lives back WITHOUT the side effects and poorly overseen pharmaceuticals to just manage symptoms.
Something to think about.
In good health!!!
Peace and Light
et
Saturday Morning Chuckle ...
I think this is going to be my new mantra .... hahahahaha .... this is too true for reality.
Enjoy!!!
I think this is just too right-on!!! There isn't anything wrong with me .... LOL ....
Peace and Light
et
Enjoy!!!
I think this is just too right-on!!! There isn't anything wrong with me .... LOL ....
Peace and Light
et
Friday, October 14, 2011
One Hurdle Down ...
Good Evening Everyone!!
... and a happy Friday!!! I didn't think this week was EVER going to end. Too much hitting this house to deal with all at once. But .... in my usual "can't keep a good...down" mantra .... hahaha...I have tried to remain positive, that although I am still at a loss as to what I am dealing with, it is basically out of my hands at this point. I got my biopsies back that were done by the GYN ... we dodged a bullet on this one as it is only "mild" this time around. Meaning that we are only at the cellular changes and stress is a known contributor ..... so I continue to breathe deep with my shoulders back. I can deal with this, and we have a couple of options in which to make it good again. I will be re-checked in 3 months.
On to Monday .... I must arrive at the hospital at 7:30 with surgery scheduled for 9:45 lasting ... approximately 60-90 minutes .... ok ... not anything I haven't done, what seems like a hundred times already, it must be this way. We won't know what we are dealing with until the surgeon gets in there, and decides "how much is taken out." With that last little blurt stems much anxiety, but I keep telling myself, keep the faith, believe in that which is bigger than I. I have stated before, I am just a speck in the big picture of things. I like my "speck" to shine ... LOL ... even in these situations. Yes, I will not lie, I am anxious, I don't like not knowing. I like to see where things start, and follow them through, and I want to KNOWhow it all works along the way. When I find myself in these sorts of situations, I remove myself to some extent from the things that make me drift to dark spots. Now, don't get me wrong, I have had a living will in place for years .... LOL .... I know my risks, and the last thing I want is to leave my baby with a bigger mess to clean up than we already have here. I would like to think I will leave her better off in some ways, but neither one of us is ready to make this reality just yet. As long as I retain my "fight" I have the upper hand in my own outcome. I did make a really bad mistake this afternoon after leaving the doctor's office with my results and stopped to get my hair trimmed ..... BAD IDEA!!!! I am now ... short again .... really short. I got home, glared at the girl-child and just said, "yeah, yeah, I know ...." I guess I will be re-inventing myself again ... heheheheheh ..... it's only hair, but my vision will never come to reality until those who do this job, define "trim." Its like turning on the weed-whacker and just letting it go on its own. I have the product to make it work ... hahaha ... and with hat season right around the corner, it will be fine for a few months, and way-easy for post surgery head!!!
Ok my friends, I have a lot to accomplish before Sunday evening so I recuperate comfortably. I will post soon, and let you know how it is going. Thank you to all who send good vibes, prayers, and comforting thoughts. I very much appreciate all the love!!!!
Be well and have a wonderful weekend!!!
Peace and Light
et
... and a happy Friday!!! I didn't think this week was EVER going to end. Too much hitting this house to deal with all at once. But .... in my usual "can't keep a good...down" mantra .... hahaha...I have tried to remain positive, that although I am still at a loss as to what I am dealing with, it is basically out of my hands at this point. I got my biopsies back that were done by the GYN ... we dodged a bullet on this one as it is only "mild" this time around. Meaning that we are only at the cellular changes and stress is a known contributor ..... so I continue to breathe deep with my shoulders back. I can deal with this, and we have a couple of options in which to make it good again. I will be re-checked in 3 months.
On to Monday .... I must arrive at the hospital at 7:30 with surgery scheduled for 9:45 lasting ... approximately 60-90 minutes .... ok ... not anything I haven't done, what seems like a hundred times already, it must be this way. We won't know what we are dealing with until the surgeon gets in there, and decides "how much is taken out." With that last little blurt stems much anxiety, but I keep telling myself, keep the faith, believe in that which is bigger than I. I have stated before, I am just a speck in the big picture of things. I like my "speck" to shine ... LOL ... even in these situations. Yes, I will not lie, I am anxious, I don't like not knowing. I like to see where things start, and follow them through, and I want to KNOWhow it all works along the way. When I find myself in these sorts of situations, I remove myself to some extent from the things that make me drift to dark spots. Now, don't get me wrong, I have had a living will in place for years .... LOL .... I know my risks, and the last thing I want is to leave my baby with a bigger mess to clean up than we already have here. I would like to think I will leave her better off in some ways, but neither one of us is ready to make this reality just yet. As long as I retain my "fight" I have the upper hand in my own outcome. I did make a really bad mistake this afternoon after leaving the doctor's office with my results and stopped to get my hair trimmed ..... BAD IDEA!!!! I am now ... short again .... really short. I got home, glared at the girl-child and just said, "yeah, yeah, I know ...." I guess I will be re-inventing myself again ... heheheheheh ..... it's only hair, but my vision will never come to reality until those who do this job, define "trim." Its like turning on the weed-whacker and just letting it go on its own. I have the product to make it work ... hahaha ... and with hat season right around the corner, it will be fine for a few months, and way-easy for post surgery head!!!
Ok my friends, I have a lot to accomplish before Sunday evening so I recuperate comfortably. I will post soon, and let you know how it is going. Thank you to all who send good vibes, prayers, and comforting thoughts. I very much appreciate all the love!!!!
Be well and have a wonderful weekend!!!
Peace and Light
et
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Just a lazy Saturday afternoon ...
Hello!!!
Haven't been doing much, slowly. I haven't felt so great the last few days. I'm not sure if it is fall allergies (this was the time of year I got sick last year, for 4 months) or the fact that the temps dropped what feels like 30 degrees in the last couple of days. In any event, I have had a sore throat and am just completely exhausted and achy. I am hoping for LOTS of sleep in the time I will be home recouping from my surgery which is scheduled for a week from Monday.
This afternoon I decided to take Maggie (the lazy looking furry creature in the picture above) to the dog park. Was a good ride in as she loves to ride, and then after about 20 minutes of playing frisbee and catching some other dog's squeaky toy, we were tossed out by the apparently new force of the doggie patrol. I spewed laughter when this over-sized (height) woman with her walkie-talkie, baseball hat and really bad aviator sunglasses approached me ... with her dog on a leash, and told me "it's the law .... you can't bring treats into the park. it causes tension between the dogs." I couldn't contain myself, she was so serious .... I had to laugh. First, I always have a baggie with little cookies in it for Maggie, and sometime other dogs, but not unless their owners are close and say it is ok. I was talking with an elderly couple whose dog was perched very nonaggressively at my feet, they were petting Maggie at the time of the encounter. I was a little irritated with this doggie douche bag .... so I decided to leave and left our new frisbee behind. I guess we will be looking for other means of play as I won't take her back there!!! I don't need that crap when there are people that show up and don't pay any attention to their dogs ... those are the ones I see starting the aggressive encounters. We have been going to this same park since she was a puppy, almost 3 years now. Anyway ... what I thought would be some quality play time turned into me calling Maggie a "Bad Ass Dog" .... and we came home, laughing and loving the entire ride. Now me and my trouble making cohort are sacked out here on the couch again .... LOL.
Basically, I have just been weeding through boxes, cleaning out my closets, rearranging some of the furniture and getting rid of a lot all the crap we rarely use, don't really need, and just collects dust ... or in our case, dog hair.
So, Maggie and I are getting ready to wind down and chill out for the evening. It is getting a little chilly at night and I am trying hard NOT to turn the heat on yet. Maggie is real good about keeping my feet warm ... she likes to lay across the bottom of my legs, she is the worlds biggest couch potato and I love her.
Wishing everyone a restful weekend!!!
Peace and Light
et
Haven't been doing much, slowly. I haven't felt so great the last few days. I'm not sure if it is fall allergies (this was the time of year I got sick last year, for 4 months) or the fact that the temps dropped what feels like 30 degrees in the last couple of days. In any event, I have had a sore throat and am just completely exhausted and achy. I am hoping for LOTS of sleep in the time I will be home recouping from my surgery which is scheduled for a week from Monday.
This afternoon I decided to take Maggie (the lazy looking furry creature in the picture above) to the dog park. Was a good ride in as she loves to ride, and then after about 20 minutes of playing frisbee and catching some other dog's squeaky toy, we were tossed out by the apparently new force of the doggie patrol. I spewed laughter when this over-sized (height) woman with her walkie-talkie, baseball hat and really bad aviator sunglasses approached me ... with her dog on a leash, and told me "it's the law .... you can't bring treats into the park. it causes tension between the dogs." I couldn't contain myself, she was so serious .... I had to laugh. First, I always have a baggie with little cookies in it for Maggie, and sometime other dogs, but not unless their owners are close and say it is ok. I was talking with an elderly couple whose dog was perched very nonaggressively at my feet, they were petting Maggie at the time of the encounter. I was a little irritated with this doggie douche bag .... so I decided to leave and left our new frisbee behind. I guess we will be looking for other means of play as I won't take her back there!!! I don't need that crap when there are people that show up and don't pay any attention to their dogs ... those are the ones I see starting the aggressive encounters. We have been going to this same park since she was a puppy, almost 3 years now. Anyway ... what I thought would be some quality play time turned into me calling Maggie a "Bad Ass Dog" .... and we came home, laughing and loving the entire ride. Now me and my trouble making cohort are sacked out here on the couch again .... LOL.
Basically, I have just been weeding through boxes, cleaning out my closets, rearranging some of the furniture and getting rid of a lot all the crap we rarely use, don't really need, and just collects dust ... or in our case, dog hair.
So, Maggie and I are getting ready to wind down and chill out for the evening. It is getting a little chilly at night and I am trying hard NOT to turn the heat on yet. Maggie is real good about keeping my feet warm ... she likes to lay across the bottom of my legs, she is the worlds biggest couch potato and I love her.
Wishing everyone a restful weekend!!!
Peace and Light
et
Friday, October 7, 2011
6000+
My blog page has hit 6000+!!!!
I have readers from all over the world and that excites me tremendously. To my friends and extended family who continue to follow me thanks for always keeping me in your thoughts and prayers.
Thanks to all who read continuously and for all those new people that come along!!!
Knowledge is power!!
Enjoy the weekend!!!
Peace and Light
et
I have readers from all over the world and that excites me tremendously. To my friends and extended family who continue to follow me thanks for always keeping me in your thoughts and prayers.
Thanks to all who read continuously and for all those new people that come along!!!
Knowledge is power!!
Enjoy the weekend!!!
Peace and Light
et
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
One more for tonight ...
http://www.cbs42.com/content/health/story/New-Genes-Associated-With-Type-1-Diabetes/ri_K45M4VEGQ9GHbGrpA0A.cspx
Excellent stuff!!!!
This is the level that has taken years to make it to the forefront .... let's let them move forward already.
Have a good night everyone!!
et
Excellent stuff!!!!
This is the level that has taken years to make it to the forefront .... let's let them move forward already.
Have a good night everyone!!
et
Very Interesting Read
The below link is to an article looking at the relationship between diabetes and cancer.
The theory is right on .... but I am hoping that for me, currently, this article could be a little off .... hahaha ... continuing to hope.
Really .... serious science going on here and I find it fascinating. I never thought of myself as a science geek before, but my daughter says it is clearly evident.
http://www.cbs42.com/content/health/story/Cancer-and-Diabetes-A-Shared-Biological-Basis/7mJS6jISo0aHqboMVW30dA.cspx
Enjoy the evening!!
Peace and Light
et
The theory is right on .... but I am hoping that for me, currently, this article could be a little off .... hahaha ... continuing to hope.
Really .... serious science going on here and I find it fascinating. I never thought of myself as a science geek before, but my daughter says it is clearly evident.
http://www.cbs42.com/content/health/story/Cancer-and-Diabetes-A-Shared-Biological-Basis/7mJS6jISo0aHqboMVW30dA.cspx
Enjoy the evening!!
Peace and Light
et
Monday, October 3, 2011
A Major scientific loss ....
This is such a loss to the world of science and medicine.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/44755546/ns/health-health_care/
Promising discoveries!!!
Peace and Light
et
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/44755546/ns/health-health_care/
Promising discoveries!!!
Peace and Light
et
Isn't Life Strange ....
I have some very strange stuff going on in my life .... preop testing in the morning ... fasting tonight .... trying hard to keep things in perspective, starting to really suck having a nursing student in the house, like my nerves aren't already shot. Stars are calling me early tonight ♥
Sweet Dreams to all!!
Peace & Light
et
Sweet Dreams to all!!
Peace & Light
et
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Mentalpause ....
Good Sunday Morning!!!
I am just going to make a quick update.
My blood sugars remain exceptionally stable, with a few potential lows (which are being caught). On Tuesday I go in for pre-op testing and will have my A1c drawn as well seeing as my endocrine appointment is sometime this month. I was told a few weeks ago that my ovaries have shut down .... bahda bing!! That explains some of the stuff that has been going on, but not all of it. I'm thinking I came through that phase pretty good, LMAO ... like almost unknowingly as they told me back when I was 35-36 I was in early stage of "mentalpause." As many of you know, these natural hormonal changes we go through effect our lives in different ways, now add those changes to an already existing endocrine disease and you could have potential chaos. If I had to rate between menopause and adolescents, I would take menopause ... LOL.... call it experience if you want. I remember adolescents as pure hell on so many levels, hormones going up and down, in turn blood sugars respond making for some real "moody" situations.
In any event, this week will have me busy at work, not unusual. Hopefully getting some info on TWO new ventures, and continuing to weed through the home mess, which by the way, has my back in major spasm mode from moving boxes, unpacking, repacking, and trashing. I will be so relieved when this task is done and I can honestly make it final having gone through my stages of grief and knowing I did the very best I could to make sure my parents were made to be comfortable in their final days. I am human too, I did what others didn't have the heart, manhood, maturity, etc to do for their own parents. That in and of itself, blows me away ..... always will ..... I don't understand and part of me doesn't want to. We have a future ... uncertain currently for me, but I remain hopeful for a very interesting future doing things that I know I can make a difference with, and I am keeping that dream in my sights.
I would like to wish everyone a wonderful week .... be kind to yourself.
I will be in touch as we get closer to surgery date ... I have some pre-surgical nerves, but it is the recovery process I am most concerned with as this may be "routine" to some, it is not for me and therefore my recovery based on my aging has me concerned. My nursing student daughter also reiterated the statement that this "will not be pleasant."
Peace and Light
et
I am just going to make a quick update.
My blood sugars remain exceptionally stable, with a few potential lows (which are being caught). On Tuesday I go in for pre-op testing and will have my A1c drawn as well seeing as my endocrine appointment is sometime this month. I was told a few weeks ago that my ovaries have shut down .... bahda bing!! That explains some of the stuff that has been going on, but not all of it. I'm thinking I came through that phase pretty good, LMAO ... like almost unknowingly as they told me back when I was 35-36 I was in early stage of "mentalpause." As many of you know, these natural hormonal changes we go through effect our lives in different ways, now add those changes to an already existing endocrine disease and you could have potential chaos. If I had to rate between menopause and adolescents, I would take menopause ... LOL.... call it experience if you want. I remember adolescents as pure hell on so many levels, hormones going up and down, in turn blood sugars respond making for some real "moody" situations.
In any event, this week will have me busy at work, not unusual. Hopefully getting some info on TWO new ventures, and continuing to weed through the home mess, which by the way, has my back in major spasm mode from moving boxes, unpacking, repacking, and trashing. I will be so relieved when this task is done and I can honestly make it final having gone through my stages of grief and knowing I did the very best I could to make sure my parents were made to be comfortable in their final days. I am human too, I did what others didn't have the heart, manhood, maturity, etc to do for their own parents. That in and of itself, blows me away ..... always will ..... I don't understand and part of me doesn't want to. We have a future ... uncertain currently for me, but I remain hopeful for a very interesting future doing things that I know I can make a difference with, and I am keeping that dream in my sights.
I would like to wish everyone a wonderful week .... be kind to yourself.
I will be in touch as we get closer to surgery date ... I have some pre-surgical nerves, but it is the recovery process I am most concerned with as this may be "routine" to some, it is not for me and therefore my recovery based on my aging has me concerned. My nursing student daughter also reiterated the statement that this "will not be pleasant."
Peace and Light
et
Saturday, October 1, 2011
Good Afternoon Folks!!
Just taking a few minutes to check in. It's been a really long week. It is beginning to feel like I don't know when one day ends and another begins, that is the sort of exhausting fluff going on. Work is work, and more often than not, too much flippin' drama. I too often find myself just shaking my head ... I just don't want to be part of poor business practices. So it has really been taking it out of me to show up and give the best parts of my day to be unappreciated, over-worked, take on more with less, etc. We all know how that story goes, right?? HT and I are both down-in-the-dumps for apparently what most are saying is a natural process. I would agree if there wasn't SO much "life" going on at the same time. I don't know if you call if cosmic garbage, space junk, depression, or what .... I just know I am feeling very odd these days. I can't wait to get home at night so I can go to sleep .... hahaha .... I have been trying to get through all this material BS that still invades my home. I want my home back, I want my own comfort zone re-established. I have always been the "dreamer" and lately .... OMG ..... these phases are becoming almost preoccupying ... lol. I know we all dream, but, I don't always remember my dreams and lately, I have been having some real whammies.... and remembering them. Dangers of a woman who thinks with both sides of her brain ... hahahaha .... sometime I feel like one of those commercials where the angel is on one shoulder and the devil on the other.
Anyway ... ET is slightly preoccupied with the upcoming surgery and the outcome of what is involved and without a doubt, my recovery. I am a little nervous here folks. I have come to far to give up yet. I think what has me most concerned currently is just coming out of the anesthesia. The last couple of times I have been put under I haven't come out as well as I always did ... sounds like another "getting older" scenarios.
I think I just need to wait and see what happens and not wear myself out worrying about the "what ifs."
So with that being said .... the wash needs to be put in the dryer, the trash taken out, some more crap to be packed. I am enjoying being alone today .... sort of. .... the "girls" are napping in the other room. :)
Hoping that everyone is enjoying the beautiful fall weekend!!
Peace and Light
et
Just taking a few minutes to check in. It's been a really long week. It is beginning to feel like I don't know when one day ends and another begins, that is the sort of exhausting fluff going on. Work is work, and more often than not, too much flippin' drama. I too often find myself just shaking my head ... I just don't want to be part of poor business practices. So it has really been taking it out of me to show up and give the best parts of my day to be unappreciated, over-worked, take on more with less, etc. We all know how that story goes, right?? HT and I are both down-in-the-dumps for apparently what most are saying is a natural process. I would agree if there wasn't SO much "life" going on at the same time. I don't know if you call if cosmic garbage, space junk, depression, or what .... I just know I am feeling very odd these days. I can't wait to get home at night so I can go to sleep .... hahaha .... I have been trying to get through all this material BS that still invades my home. I want my home back, I want my own comfort zone re-established. I have always been the "dreamer" and lately .... OMG ..... these phases are becoming almost preoccupying ... lol. I know we all dream, but, I don't always remember my dreams and lately, I have been having some real whammies.... and remembering them. Dangers of a woman who thinks with both sides of her brain ... hahahaha .... sometime I feel like one of those commercials where the angel is on one shoulder and the devil on the other.
Anyway ... ET is slightly preoccupied with the upcoming surgery and the outcome of what is involved and without a doubt, my recovery. I am a little nervous here folks. I have come to far to give up yet. I think what has me most concerned currently is just coming out of the anesthesia. The last couple of times I have been put under I haven't come out as well as I always did ... sounds like another "getting older" scenarios.
I think I just need to wait and see what happens and not wear myself out worrying about the "what ifs."
So with that being said .... the wash needs to be put in the dryer, the trash taken out, some more crap to be packed. I am enjoying being alone today .... sort of. .... the "girls" are napping in the other room. :)
Hoping that everyone is enjoying the beautiful fall weekend!!
Peace and Light
et
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