Evening Folks ...
I am so tired ... I don't remember being this tired after my 1st treatment. It could be any number of things. The trip itself was overwhelming on so many levels and I am hoping I can share the big excitement soon. It has only been 5 days since my adipose stem cell treatment and I am going to have to drop my insulin intake when I get in the shower tonight. (Pump change). I have bottomed out on my blood sugars several times with no real reason, I could understand if I had over-bolused or didn't do a square wave/dual wave delivery. So I will adjust my pump and drop my intake by 1/2 unit this evening. Other than that, I am not doing much of anything. I have been sleeping for what seems like days ... 2 I guess. I am still trying to cough up whatever started in my lungs, and there was the antibiotic reaction ... that could be it ... so ... I will just rest for another day or 2.
My headaches have stopped!!!! That right there is worth a million!! I had a headache for 3 months since the accident. The doctor injected my neck directly this treatment as well as my IV drip. It wasn't as bad as I would have anticipated, but, having a constant headache for 3 months, I don't think anything could have been much worse. It was pretty amazing, I was moving my neck within 10 minutes!!! (I have been resting it since). I know this is going to sound like the ultimate oxymoron, but for as bad as I feel, I am feeling better.
I have so much I would like to share, but my energy level and memory is still a little foggy. I think I need to listen to my body more and just do the resting thing for a few days. I will try and get it motivated as soon as I can.
Just thought I would do a little up date. I have an orthopedic appointment on Weds. I am pretty sure he will release me as I have finished my physical therapy and my knee is showing improvement. It's weird, but I think I feel a lot of "activity" in my gut ... my belly button is wicked itchy (this is where they accessed this time) that would indicate healing. LOL .... amazingly, there has been no bruising on the skin surface ... the whole process just continues to blow me away with the capabilities of healing.
Wishing everyone a peaceful night.
Sleep well and sweet dreams.
Peace and Light
et
Monday, March 26, 2012
Saturday, March 24, 2012
3 Days post-treatment #2
Happy Spring to Everyone!!!
... and with the change of season, there has to be a change in me. I am 3 days post 2nd treatment .... done right here in CA!!!! Read my previous to post to see how this has occurred. There have been multiple, positive advances since my first treatment 13 months ago. 13 .... I can't believe the crap that life has thrown at us in those 13 months alone..... wow.... I'm just sayin'.
The past week was just SO much, that it is going to have to be a major part of my book. The happenings, encounters, topics-of-discussion, the people we met from around the world, and the care I got, was beyond anything I can put here in print. But, trust me .... I will reveal all in the book. Oh, it isn't a "tell all" like that. I will change some names to protect the innocent..... LOL. First, it was storming the morning we left (3/18) and since the accident I am beyond jumpy when it comes to travel. I can't help it ... I just twitch out. As the week came to an end, St. Patrick's Day on the horizon, HT wanting to go out and bail ship again, the tension came to a head. I told her if she couldn't handle being in close proximity with me for more than a day that she should stay behind and I would either go alone, or ask one of the girls to accompany me. I am guessing, had it gone that way, I would have had to do it alone. In any event, it was a little tense at the start, but .... WOW .... the following 3 days are a turning point ... a turning point for both of us, and the only real issue was that we hadn't had the opportunity to actually confront each other on what was happening and how we can't run from it, as it is the proverbial "elephant in the room."
... and so the week began. We arrived in CA about 8 pm on Sunday night. We were both exhausted ... we had talked, laughed, got a little pissed, sentimental, down right angry .... let it all out .... and decided, it was time to let it all go. That night in the hotel we continued our discussion after running up the block to grab a few groceries from the neighborhood Trader Joe's .... LOL ... HT was in love at first encounter .... with CA!! (I'm thinking I am not going to get all I want in this post as I am .... 3 days post and still a wee bit cloudy in the head.) We ate and went for a ride around the city to see where we were at. All good..... and off to sleep we went.
Ok ... well ... I will cut through the dirty details of how I feel currently. The experience was UNBELIEVABLE"! I had my neck injected directly as well in the same manner in which the suggested recommended occipital nerve blocks would have worked ... without side effects of steroids, and within 10 minutes.... YES, 10 minutes, I was rolling my head!!! I haven't been able to do that in 3 months!!! Just as the doctor came around the corner and I said "look at this!!", he responded with "I just injected it." I was then advised by several that perhaps I should give it a rest and allow the little buggers to get to work. Since that time, my headache (you know, that one I have had since the accident) is down to like a 2 from a 5-6/10. That was really pulling me down, the constant headache. OK, 1 plus, that night, I got up at 12:15 feeling a little fuzzy, prick .... 55 .... oh yeah!! #2 - signs coming back earlier rather than too late, and last for tonight, as I am sort of drifting in and out, is the numbers .... check some of these out ... 113,109,135,123,65,134,167,83,161, 51 (caught with symptoms),187, 128, 92 .... all commercial worthy in my opinion. I will continue to map for a drop time in insulin intake. Something some don't get is ... I am not going to, nor have I ever, really, beat myself up over a high that I know I did everything in my power to avoid ... you know ... sometimes, jugglers just can't keep all their balls in the air.
On that note, I will try to post again tomorrow, as the amazing happenings of this treatment trip are far from even being touched yet. It was eye opening in SO very many ways for both HT and myself. To the point that on Tuesday after sleeping in, and then going to hotel early for orientation .... HT was out cold by 6:30 due to the overwhelming stimulation that was in the air.
To all those who may be hesitant about this process and its capabilities .... trust me, this stuff can't be faked!!! This was just proof to me that I made the best choice the first time around going with Stem Genex and it's team, because I was treated like a person, not a number, not a dollar sign, and it was every step of the way. I will post again tomorrow.
Have a good night, be good to yourself, be good to each other!!!
Peace and Light
et
... and with the change of season, there has to be a change in me. I am 3 days post 2nd treatment .... done right here in CA!!!! Read my previous to post to see how this has occurred. There have been multiple, positive advances since my first treatment 13 months ago. 13 .... I can't believe the crap that life has thrown at us in those 13 months alone..... wow.... I'm just sayin'.
The past week was just SO much, that it is going to have to be a major part of my book. The happenings, encounters, topics-of-discussion, the people we met from around the world, and the care I got, was beyond anything I can put here in print. But, trust me .... I will reveal all in the book. Oh, it isn't a "tell all" like that. I will change some names to protect the innocent..... LOL. First, it was storming the morning we left (3/18) and since the accident I am beyond jumpy when it comes to travel. I can't help it ... I just twitch out. As the week came to an end, St. Patrick's Day on the horizon, HT wanting to go out and bail ship again, the tension came to a head. I told her if she couldn't handle being in close proximity with me for more than a day that she should stay behind and I would either go alone, or ask one of the girls to accompany me. I am guessing, had it gone that way, I would have had to do it alone. In any event, it was a little tense at the start, but .... WOW .... the following 3 days are a turning point ... a turning point for both of us, and the only real issue was that we hadn't had the opportunity to actually confront each other on what was happening and how we can't run from it, as it is the proverbial "elephant in the room."
... and so the week began. We arrived in CA about 8 pm on Sunday night. We were both exhausted ... we had talked, laughed, got a little pissed, sentimental, down right angry .... let it all out .... and decided, it was time to let it all go. That night in the hotel we continued our discussion after running up the block to grab a few groceries from the neighborhood Trader Joe's .... LOL ... HT was in love at first encounter .... with CA!! (I'm thinking I am not going to get all I want in this post as I am .... 3 days post and still a wee bit cloudy in the head.) We ate and went for a ride around the city to see where we were at. All good..... and off to sleep we went.
Ok ... well ... I will cut through the dirty details of how I feel currently. The experience was UNBELIEVABLE"! I had my neck injected directly as well in the same manner in which the suggested recommended occipital nerve blocks would have worked ... without side effects of steroids, and within 10 minutes.... YES, 10 minutes, I was rolling my head!!! I haven't been able to do that in 3 months!!! Just as the doctor came around the corner and I said "look at this!!", he responded with "I just injected it." I was then advised by several that perhaps I should give it a rest and allow the little buggers to get to work. Since that time, my headache (you know, that one I have had since the accident) is down to like a 2 from a 5-6/10. That was really pulling me down, the constant headache. OK, 1 plus, that night, I got up at 12:15 feeling a little fuzzy, prick .... 55 .... oh yeah!! #2 - signs coming back earlier rather than too late, and last for tonight, as I am sort of drifting in and out, is the numbers .... check some of these out ... 113,109,135,123,65,134,167,83,161, 51 (caught with symptoms),187, 128, 92 .... all commercial worthy in my opinion. I will continue to map for a drop time in insulin intake. Something some don't get is ... I am not going to, nor have I ever, really, beat myself up over a high that I know I did everything in my power to avoid ... you know ... sometimes, jugglers just can't keep all their balls in the air.
On that note, I will try to post again tomorrow, as the amazing happenings of this treatment trip are far from even being touched yet. It was eye opening in SO very many ways for both HT and myself. To the point that on Tuesday after sleeping in, and then going to hotel early for orientation .... HT was out cold by 6:30 due to the overwhelming stimulation that was in the air.
To all those who may be hesitant about this process and its capabilities .... trust me, this stuff can't be faked!!! This was just proof to me that I made the best choice the first time around going with Stem Genex and it's team, because I was treated like a person, not a number, not a dollar sign, and it was every step of the way. I will post again tomorrow.
Have a good night, be good to yourself, be good to each other!!!
Peace and Light
et
FDA Rulings
Hello my faithful followers!!!
http://www.lef.org/magazine/mag2011/jan2011_Potential-Arthritis-Treatment-Advance-Blocked-by-FDA_01.htm
Just a good read, but I forgot to post it ..... duh ... welcome to my world. :)~
Peace and Light
et
PS: Hoping it will tie in with my next post.
http://www.lef.org/magazine/mag2011/jan2011_Potential-Arthritis-Treatment-Advance-Blocked-by-FDA_01.htm
Just a good read, but I forgot to post it ..... duh ... welcome to my world. :)~
Peace and Light
et
PS: Hoping it will tie in with my next post.
Saturday, March 17, 2012
And the preparation begins ...
I hope everyone had the luck of the Irish with them today ... and for another year. (To be honest, I'm not sure what the hell that means seeing as I am from Irish decent, my luck sucks .... is that Irish...?? :)~
Peace and Light
et
Get Ready ...
Good Morning and a Happy St. Patty's Day to everyone!!!
As many of you know, I was involved in a head-on collision 3 days after my daughter graduated in December. My recovery, i.e., head injury, has not been in a timely manner for me. I am frustrated with the issues I am being forced to face, deal with, re-learn, adjust, allow to let go ... not sure what I am trying to say exactly, but .... I have been placed on "leave without pay status at work" .... adds to the stress levels, my focus, concentration, "hostility" as some would describe it seems at times to be out of my control and I have no choice but to give in to it. Needless to say, the stress levels in my household have been high in the past few months. Given the happenings of the past year alone, I'm thinking this past few months is a good 3-4 chapters in my book, which I have been unable to work on these days. I have a plethora of notes all over the place ... I'm not thinking they are going to come to light when I look at them again, but I can continue to HOPE!!!!
I have not done much posting other than articles since the accident (or at least that is how it feels to me). I feel like I am in some sort of time warp. I can't remember what I did 5 minutes ago, never mind what has transpired in the past 3 months. I can look at notes, doc reports, etc and recall some things, but I am not even remotely close to the person I was on December 10th, and then on December 13th, my life seemed to change .... drastically. I am having a difficult time, and my daughter is having a VERY difficult time dealing with all that has transpired...... and she LIKES scary stuff. I need some sort of change, I need to push forward (I'm so tired) as I want my old personality back. This head crap is hard to describe .... I wish I could be more clear.
So ... tomorrow ... having done all the things various doctors have done and/or suggested, my daughter and I will be heading to California in the morning so that I may undergo the adult stem cell treatment again on Weds. I am very excited about this process .... yet, I have reservation about the travel ... I am still at a "jumpy" status when it comes to driving with stupidity abound and all around (they are calling this a symptoms of PTSD). My blood sugars have been slightly erratic since the accident, but commercial worthy overall.... LOL.... I have had several dangerous lows, being told my brain is healing and this could play a role. I think I may have wandered there, ok, so all the docs have suggested my undergoing the stem cell treatment again, ALL, having seen drastic positive changes in me after my first treatment back in February of 2011. So ... having done what they recommended up to this point and having no real advancement of status change, I will be working with the Stem Genex Team again in the next week. This is so promising and given the advancement I have seen in the science in just the year since my first treatment ..... I have BIG HOPE!!! I am very much looking forward to seeing Ms. Rita and working with the team to better not only my health, but push the progress forward ... (yes, you all know how excited I get in the geeky mode of science and medicine) it is an element in which I take great interest and excitement. I looked into the hyperbarric treatment prior to undergoing treatment this time, however, it is costly, and not covered by my insurance for my current status ... (I would have had to rung my bell a whole lot louder .... ). An area being studied in TBI patients, as well as other diseases. I will just go with the changes made since last treatment, which in my opinion are all positive improvements. I ... Hope, Pray, and Believe!!!
I will try and make a couple of posts next week while in CA ... my daughter, HT and I are going to use this time as a sort of "out with the old, in with the new" sort of mentality. We must ... this is definitely one of those life changing events in which I must dig deep within myself, altered as I feel, and find the strength and hope and faith to go forward. I still feel that if I leave nothing else behind, I will have left people, even if only one, with a sense of inspiration and determination to go on .... make change, encourage change, push for what is right, and make a difference. I have seen so much progress over the years thinking back to when I was first diagnosed .... I didn't really care back then ... I felt doomed in a sense having been told of all the restrictions, complications being "inevitable" and expectancy of life. Well, there have been many challenges, and when you add the juggling of life and it's happenings, along with the juggling required in managing my disease ..... I don't think I have done so bad in spite of some saying that in recent months "she's a train wreck!" I still have tremendous support in my friends and distant family .... but this is something I need to do for me. If nothing else, I can be the vessel for future progress in this area of science and medicine. Nothing would make me happier than to have given of myself to help the future of kids and Type 1, and to somehow have been an example of someone that can get through, even the darkest of times and come out shining!!
So as I go about my day today, packing and preparing to travel and undergo change .... I wish all of you a joyful, peaceful, and happy St. Patrick's Day ... be safe, be good to each other .... be good to yourself!!!
In Peace and Light
et
As many of you know, I was involved in a head-on collision 3 days after my daughter graduated in December. My recovery, i.e., head injury, has not been in a timely manner for me. I am frustrated with the issues I am being forced to face, deal with, re-learn, adjust, allow to let go ... not sure what I am trying to say exactly, but .... I have been placed on "leave without pay status at work" .... adds to the stress levels, my focus, concentration, "hostility" as some would describe it seems at times to be out of my control and I have no choice but to give in to it. Needless to say, the stress levels in my household have been high in the past few months. Given the happenings of the past year alone, I'm thinking this past few months is a good 3-4 chapters in my book, which I have been unable to work on these days. I have a plethora of notes all over the place ... I'm not thinking they are going to come to light when I look at them again, but I can continue to HOPE!!!!
I have not done much posting other than articles since the accident (or at least that is how it feels to me). I feel like I am in some sort of time warp. I can't remember what I did 5 minutes ago, never mind what has transpired in the past 3 months. I can look at notes, doc reports, etc and recall some things, but I am not even remotely close to the person I was on December 10th, and then on December 13th, my life seemed to change .... drastically. I am having a difficult time, and my daughter is having a VERY difficult time dealing with all that has transpired...... and she LIKES scary stuff. I need some sort of change, I need to push forward (I'm so tired) as I want my old personality back. This head crap is hard to describe .... I wish I could be more clear.
So ... tomorrow ... having done all the things various doctors have done and/or suggested, my daughter and I will be heading to California in the morning so that I may undergo the adult stem cell treatment again on Weds. I am very excited about this process .... yet, I have reservation about the travel ... I am still at a "jumpy" status when it comes to driving with stupidity abound and all around (they are calling this a symptoms of PTSD). My blood sugars have been slightly erratic since the accident, but commercial worthy overall.... LOL.... I have had several dangerous lows, being told my brain is healing and this could play a role. I think I may have wandered there, ok, so all the docs have suggested my undergoing the stem cell treatment again, ALL, having seen drastic positive changes in me after my first treatment back in February of 2011. So ... having done what they recommended up to this point and having no real advancement of status change, I will be working with the Stem Genex Team again in the next week. This is so promising and given the advancement I have seen in the science in just the year since my first treatment ..... I have BIG HOPE!!! I am very much looking forward to seeing Ms. Rita and working with the team to better not only my health, but push the progress forward ... (yes, you all know how excited I get in the geeky mode of science and medicine) it is an element in which I take great interest and excitement. I looked into the hyperbarric treatment prior to undergoing treatment this time, however, it is costly, and not covered by my insurance for my current status ... (I would have had to rung my bell a whole lot louder .... ). An area being studied in TBI patients, as well as other diseases. I will just go with the changes made since last treatment, which in my opinion are all positive improvements. I ... Hope, Pray, and Believe!!!
I will try and make a couple of posts next week while in CA ... my daughter, HT and I are going to use this time as a sort of "out with the old, in with the new" sort of mentality. We must ... this is definitely one of those life changing events in which I must dig deep within myself, altered as I feel, and find the strength and hope and faith to go forward. I still feel that if I leave nothing else behind, I will have left people, even if only one, with a sense of inspiration and determination to go on .... make change, encourage change, push for what is right, and make a difference. I have seen so much progress over the years thinking back to when I was first diagnosed .... I didn't really care back then ... I felt doomed in a sense having been told of all the restrictions, complications being "inevitable" and expectancy of life. Well, there have been many challenges, and when you add the juggling of life and it's happenings, along with the juggling required in managing my disease ..... I don't think I have done so bad in spite of some saying that in recent months "she's a train wreck!" I still have tremendous support in my friends and distant family .... but this is something I need to do for me. If nothing else, I can be the vessel for future progress in this area of science and medicine. Nothing would make me happier than to have given of myself to help the future of kids and Type 1, and to somehow have been an example of someone that can get through, even the darkest of times and come out shining!!
So as I go about my day today, packing and preparing to travel and undergo change .... I wish all of you a joyful, peaceful, and happy St. Patrick's Day ... be safe, be good to each other .... be good to yourself!!!
In Peace and Light
et
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
An Amazing Legacy ...
... and on so many fronts.
http://www.utsandiego.com/news/2012/mar/14/robert-p-krause-90-engineer-first-manned-space-fli/
Truly an inspiring man, may he do great things in the next life as well!!
Peace and Light
et
http://www.utsandiego.com/news/2012/mar/14/robert-p-krause-90-engineer-first-manned-space-fli/
Truly an inspiring man, may he do great things in the next life as well!!
Peace and Light
et
Monday, March 5, 2012
you have to check this out!!!
Can you all hear my excitement with this sort of publicity regarding Adult (adipose) stem cell treatments. ..??
This is right up there with the new tissue they grew on a soldier's leg. We have the capability to heal ourselves with a little help from our passionate doctors and scientists ... and those other than the "Regular Joe's" like myself, those with the power and promise, knowledge and know-how need to bring this to the forefront with voices people recognize. When it comes right down to it, we are ALL human beings and we are all suseptable to having a devasting health issue. Let's use our power and voices together to make some noise.
This sort of press gets me all stoked up .... hehehe ... and right now, I need all the stokin' I can get!!!
Enjoy the read!!!
http://www.lef.org/magazine/mag2011/dec2011_Suzanne-Somers-Uses-Stem-Cell-Therapy-Breast-Rejuvenation_01.htm
Here, you will see yet another disease we are struggling to cure and ease of treatments.
Have a wonderful evening.
Peace and Light
et
This is right up there with the new tissue they grew on a soldier's leg. We have the capability to heal ourselves with a little help from our passionate doctors and scientists ... and those other than the "Regular Joe's" like myself, those with the power and promise, knowledge and know-how need to bring this to the forefront with voices people recognize. When it comes right down to it, we are ALL human beings and we are all suseptable to having a devasting health issue. Let's use our power and voices together to make some noise.
This sort of press gets me all stoked up .... hehehe ... and right now, I need all the stokin' I can get!!!
Enjoy the read!!!
http://www.lef.org/magazine/mag2011/dec2011_Suzanne-Somers-Uses-Stem-Cell-Therapy-Breast-Rejuvenation_01.htm
Here, you will see yet another disease we are struggling to cure and ease of treatments.
Have a wonderful evening.
Peace and Light
et
This is progress ....
unitl politics gets involved again .... but .... for now, I am going to be promising as to the outcome for US citizens and any other country working to cure these devastating chronic diseases. My opinion remains that if the cells come from us, how can it be wrong?? We have this ability to heal ourselves ... with a little help from dedicated doctors and scientists.
Enjoy the read!!
http://www.medpagetoday.com/Cardiology/Atherosclerosis/31476
Have a great day!!
Peace and Light
et
Enjoy the read!!
http://www.medpagetoday.com/Cardiology/Atherosclerosis/31476
Have a great day!!
Peace and Light
et
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Very Cool Read ....
.... but .... totally gross ... even for me. :)
http://bodyodd.msnbc.msn.com/_news/2012/03/01/10541318-this-is-the-only-time-bad-breath-is-a-good-thing
Enjoy the rest of the weekend.
Peace and Light
et
http://bodyodd.msnbc.msn.com/_news/2012/03/01/10541318-this-is-the-only-time-bad-breath-is-a-good-thing
Enjoy the rest of the weekend.
Peace and Light
et
Friday, March 2, 2012
How to handle life's changes
Happy Friday my faithful followers!!!
I am ... well .... still a little empty headed. I have been out of work all week, which has me stressed out. All the docs involved, and the PT folks all seem to have the same conclusion. It is going to take time, neurologist says 6 months to a year, PT folks cut me loose on Weds stating that they have done all they can do for me physically, and yes, I am looking fairly fit for an old broad of 48. However, I would really like to cut the fog from my brain and be more focused and clear. That is what I am finding the MOST frustrating right now. I can cope ... although I am still distressed about the right sided weakness, and what is causing it. I underwent a nerve conduction test/EMG this past Tuesday, that was not my idea of pleasant, and for some reason I had after effects which I don't remember having when I had one done prior in the 90's. My body seemed to twitch for hours after the test, and my right side was even more weak than when we started the exam. Perhaps I will get some news on this today when I pick up paperwork from my PCP.
On a more positive note, several of my doctors made reference to the adult stem cell procedure in which I underwent back in February and could I do that again. Well .... knowing that they are cautious about promoting things that are NOT FDA approved, I took this as a viable dent in the thought process. All of them, from neurologist, orthopedic doc, endocrinologist, and my PCP .... ALL of them having seen the positive response and benefits I had after just one treatment. That .... on top of the year of stressful situations in which life handed me, I certainly have put these little fighter cells to the test over the past 12 months. So ... with that being said, and with the generosity of so many who think of me as "special", I am scheduled to undergo the stem cell treatment again on March 22nd!!!! ..... and I cannot begin to tell you all how much I am praying that along with improving my diabetes status, which has been remarkably stable, until the accident, that this will help my brain heal .... faster than 6-12 months!!! So I am doing my best to practice my newly revamped breathing techniques to cut the stress and anxiety, and to cleanse my body of all those bad drugs that were prescribed early on after the accident, most of which, sad to say, never touched any of my pain. It has been 2-3 weeks now since I have taken anything for anxiety .... and I will tell you that to keep breathing in some of these situations, like forcing myself to drive, can be a challenge at best as the stupid drivers just continues to baffle me!!!
I also lost a very special person this week, my cousin, Greg, passed away suddenly on Weds. and I was just shocked and heartbroken when I received this news. One of those family relationships that was a blessing in that we both went our separate ways, across the miles, across the country, yet, with random phone calls over the years, never skipping a beat, always picking up right where we left off with our humor and outlook on the world..... and being able to laugh!!! That, as many of you know, is something I truly cherish and can't always be accomplished as some people are like "out of sight, out of mind." Well, when life gets so busy that we suddenly are forced to think about those left behind .... it weighs on my heart to have lost another person, of which, I guess I have had more than most, really gets the underlying meanings of life even through the trials and tribulations and wasn't afraid to share that with me. Because we all have faults, yet, we also have the ability to reach out, to comfort, to share .... to love, and to laugh.
On that note, I would like to wish everyone a peaceful and meaningful weekend.
Take care of yourself, take care of the human side, share it when you feel it, say it when you have too.
James Taylor says in best in his tune, "Shower the people you love with love" "Show them the way that you feel." James took his struggles and helped me with his music ... all of which I find comforting and calming in times of trouble.
Peace and Light
et
I am ... well .... still a little empty headed. I have been out of work all week, which has me stressed out. All the docs involved, and the PT folks all seem to have the same conclusion. It is going to take time, neurologist says 6 months to a year, PT folks cut me loose on Weds stating that they have done all they can do for me physically, and yes, I am looking fairly fit for an old broad of 48. However, I would really like to cut the fog from my brain and be more focused and clear. That is what I am finding the MOST frustrating right now. I can cope ... although I am still distressed about the right sided weakness, and what is causing it. I underwent a nerve conduction test/EMG this past Tuesday, that was not my idea of pleasant, and for some reason I had after effects which I don't remember having when I had one done prior in the 90's. My body seemed to twitch for hours after the test, and my right side was even more weak than when we started the exam. Perhaps I will get some news on this today when I pick up paperwork from my PCP.
On a more positive note, several of my doctors made reference to the adult stem cell procedure in which I underwent back in February and could I do that again. Well .... knowing that they are cautious about promoting things that are NOT FDA approved, I took this as a viable dent in the thought process. All of them, from neurologist, orthopedic doc, endocrinologist, and my PCP .... ALL of them having seen the positive response and benefits I had after just one treatment. That .... on top of the year of stressful situations in which life handed me, I certainly have put these little fighter cells to the test over the past 12 months. So ... with that being said, and with the generosity of so many who think of me as "special", I am scheduled to undergo the stem cell treatment again on March 22nd!!!! ..... and I cannot begin to tell you all how much I am praying that along with improving my diabetes status, which has been remarkably stable, until the accident, that this will help my brain heal .... faster than 6-12 months!!! So I am doing my best to practice my newly revamped breathing techniques to cut the stress and anxiety, and to cleanse my body of all those bad drugs that were prescribed early on after the accident, most of which, sad to say, never touched any of my pain. It has been 2-3 weeks now since I have taken anything for anxiety .... and I will tell you that to keep breathing in some of these situations, like forcing myself to drive, can be a challenge at best as the stupid drivers just continues to baffle me!!!
I also lost a very special person this week, my cousin, Greg, passed away suddenly on Weds. and I was just shocked and heartbroken when I received this news. One of those family relationships that was a blessing in that we both went our separate ways, across the miles, across the country, yet, with random phone calls over the years, never skipping a beat, always picking up right where we left off with our humor and outlook on the world..... and being able to laugh!!! That, as many of you know, is something I truly cherish and can't always be accomplished as some people are like "out of sight, out of mind." Well, when life gets so busy that we suddenly are forced to think about those left behind .... it weighs on my heart to have lost another person, of which, I guess I have had more than most, really gets the underlying meanings of life even through the trials and tribulations and wasn't afraid to share that with me. Because we all have faults, yet, we also have the ability to reach out, to comfort, to share .... to love, and to laugh.
On that note, I would like to wish everyone a peaceful and meaningful weekend.
Take care of yourself, take care of the human side, share it when you feel it, say it when you have too.
James Taylor says in best in his tune, "Shower the people you love with love" "Show them the way that you feel." James took his struggles and helped me with his music ... all of which I find comforting and calming in times of trouble.
Peace and Light
et
Sunday, February 26, 2012
Adipose stem cells
I stumbled upon this article .....pretty amzing and this is a couple of years in past. The progress of this is moving forward. Enjoy ...
http://news.nationalgeographic.com/news/2009/09/090908-liposuction-leftovers-fat-stem-cells.html
Peace and Light
et
http://news.nationalgeographic.com/news/2009/09/090908-liposuction-leftovers-fat-stem-cells.html
Peace and Light
et
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Opportunity
Here we go kids!!! What a great article .... the FDA needs to back off what is mine!!!
I am living proof that this science/medicine can and will make a difference, with NO side effects!!!
The attached link is to an awesome, ground breaking fight ... the article is a good read and I so admire this doctors passion and gusto to take on the FDA. We need more doctors like this and fewer who are only out to support and line their own pockets with the FDA and pharmaceuticals. Don't doctors today take the Hippocratic oath anymore??? Thou shall not bring harm ..... I have been so very blessed to have been placed in the path of many doctors/medical professionals who see the potential for this ... for the greater good of mankind.
http://www.forbes.com/sites/gerganakoleva/2012/02/10/stem-cells-and-the-lawsuit-that-may-shape-our-medical-future/
Enjoy the read, Enjoy the Day .... Let our voices be heard!!!
Peace and Light
et
I am living proof that this science/medicine can and will make a difference, with NO side effects!!!
The attached link is to an awesome, ground breaking fight ... the article is a good read and I so admire this doctors passion and gusto to take on the FDA. We need more doctors like this and fewer who are only out to support and line their own pockets with the FDA and pharmaceuticals. Don't doctors today take the Hippocratic oath anymore??? Thou shall not bring harm ..... I have been so very blessed to have been placed in the path of many doctors/medical professionals who see the potential for this ... for the greater good of mankind.
http://www.forbes.com/sites/gerganakoleva/2012/02/10/stem-cells-and-the-lawsuit-that-may-shape-our-medical-future/
Enjoy the read, Enjoy the Day .... Let our voices be heard!!!
Peace and Light
et
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
It's time ...
A great article on the adult stem cell treatment in which I will undergo again in just a month.
I am praying that this time around, my mouth holds up to support the mainstreaming of this medicine to the people who need it most. I will keep this short as it has been an incredibly stressful day in which I was sporting the sexy scent of the month .... Icy Hot!!! My head has felt like it is going to explode for most of the day, and I pulled my right shoulder out just getting dressed this morning ... needless to say ... I know my first treatment made a huge, unexpected difference in my bone and muscle pain so again, Praying for the start of a world-wide miracle. I believe in this, I believe that this has become my mission ..... and therefore, I will give of myself.
http://www.prweb.com/releases/2012/2/prweb9213129.htm
Be good to yourselves, be good to each other!!
Peace and Light
et
I am praying that this time around, my mouth holds up to support the mainstreaming of this medicine to the people who need it most. I will keep this short as it has been an incredibly stressful day in which I was sporting the sexy scent of the month .... Icy Hot!!! My head has felt like it is going to explode for most of the day, and I pulled my right shoulder out just getting dressed this morning ... needless to say ... I know my first treatment made a huge, unexpected difference in my bone and muscle pain so again, Praying for the start of a world-wide miracle. I believe in this, I believe that this has become my mission ..... and therefore, I will give of myself.
http://www.prweb.com/releases/2012/2/prweb9213129.htm
Be good to yourselves, be good to each other!!
Peace and Light
et
This has to be a sign of improvement ...
g'evening wide world ....
I actually did this last night, for over an hour, and then POOF it was gone .... I found it this morning ..... Please God, let's make today a better day than the one before. I have just enough pain to keep me true. Enjoy the day, Amen.
someone is still reading this verbage I post .... does no one have an opinion, a comment, something that might peak a conversation, discussion, ... debate?? I'm just curious ... and being so empty upstairs these days, I thought I would just list a few comments, odd comments that I have managed to maintain in my head/memory/brain for rethinking later. I think .... and then in a nano-second it can be gone. I am beginning to feel like I have a permanent "deer in the headlight" look, or that look my mother use to laugh her ass off and say to me, "I can see you are thinking really hard on this one" as my mouth hung open in a vague trance. When I was biting on the end of my tongue she would say it was the "Dunnigan Deep Thought Look." (and as I gaze at that last sentence, I see that my grammar has fallen apart, or any resemblence of the English language for that matter. Again, I want to utter the words .... but even from deep within me currently, I know it isn't coming forth in the right, appropriate, confident .. ?? ... manner.
Ok ... the comments, then I have to go and practice some new breathing techniques ... something I thought I had mastered after all these years of breathing my way through situations in which I had an unknown knowledge of the plan/outcome. (wow, I feel like I am making sense, but the words .... ???)
"did you understand that?"
"relax, it was just ... " (this one has come multiple times in my jumpy responses to certain noises)
"breathe baby, I got it" (while being a passenger in another's vehicle)
"what do you mean you DIDN'T BRING ANY VALIUM!!!" (my daughter, driving my new ride home from Phoenix with me twitching, gasping and holding my breath) .....
Then there are those choice few ... much fewer than before, but they know who they are .... that find an opportunity to bust my chops in hopes I will get it. Yes, my ability to be sharp witted seems to be damgaged ... to the point I don't seem to pick up on the social cues, the tone of one's voice in which I could always know when to inflict my sarcasm ..... I feel like someone actually morphed me into Maxine!!! Things I think I am just "thinking" ... I apparently have been caught saying outloud ... the total lack of filter I think I mentioned. I know this ... yet I seem to have no control without MAJOR focus to remember and then it begins to hurt after a few hours.
I know, I know ... I try to calm myself with the breathing ... it was failing me, so I asked one of my PT therapist today what she could do ... I was actually lovin' laying with electrodes glued to my cervical area, up to the base of my skull, wrapped in heat, and being "zapped" for 20 minutes .... I can honestly say it was the first time I maintained an entirely shut down brain other than to breath and relax.... then the bell rang.
One comment that seems to be sitting from today is ... I could have laid on that thing hummin' along for a good hour or more .... ohhhhhh ..... what that heat. It was the first real easing of the tension and deep knots that have been residing in that entire area. HOPE .... that was what came to mind.
Ok ... well .... just a small window into my current world. Not my idea of fun ... but ... close the window if you can't handle it. And the last comment was a tidbit of fact that was mentioned to me today by the PT..." a good percentage of relationships fall apart after a head injury." ...... GREAT .... I can't help but think that is another strike that is going to keep me single for the remainder of time..... hahaha .....
Maggie is calling for my attention .... I think she is way more spoiled now as I have done a lot of snuggling with her lately, talking as if she could understand me .... she is just diggin' the overall body rub that I wish I was and/or could get ... and not have to dish out $100 bucks .... LOL.
Good Night to all .... be good to you!!
Peace and Light
et
I actually did this last night, for over an hour, and then POOF it was gone .... I found it this morning ..... Please God, let's make today a better day than the one before. I have just enough pain to keep me true. Enjoy the day, Amen.
someone is still reading this verbage I post .... does no one have an opinion, a comment, something that might peak a conversation, discussion, ... debate?? I'm just curious ... and being so empty upstairs these days, I thought I would just list a few comments, odd comments that I have managed to maintain in my head/memory/brain for rethinking later. I think .... and then in a nano-second it can be gone. I am beginning to feel like I have a permanent "deer in the headlight" look, or that look my mother use to laugh her ass off and say to me, "I can see you are thinking really hard on this one" as my mouth hung open in a vague trance. When I was biting on the end of my tongue she would say it was the "Dunnigan Deep Thought Look." (and as I gaze at that last sentence, I see that my grammar has fallen apart, or any resemblence of the English language for that matter. Again, I want to utter the words .... but even from deep within me currently, I know it isn't coming forth in the right, appropriate, confident .. ?? ... manner.
Ok ... the comments, then I have to go and practice some new breathing techniques ... something I thought I had mastered after all these years of breathing my way through situations in which I had an unknown knowledge of the plan/outcome. (wow, I feel like I am making sense, but the words .... ???)
"did you understand that?"
"relax, it was just ... " (this one has come multiple times in my jumpy responses to certain noises)
"breathe baby, I got it" (while being a passenger in another's vehicle)
"what do you mean you DIDN'T BRING ANY VALIUM!!!" (my daughter, driving my new ride home from Phoenix with me twitching, gasping and holding my breath) .....
Then there are those choice few ... much fewer than before, but they know who they are .... that find an opportunity to bust my chops in hopes I will get it. Yes, my ability to be sharp witted seems to be damgaged ... to the point I don't seem to pick up on the social cues, the tone of one's voice in which I could always know when to inflict my sarcasm ..... I feel like someone actually morphed me into Maxine!!! Things I think I am just "thinking" ... I apparently have been caught saying outloud ... the total lack of filter I think I mentioned. I know this ... yet I seem to have no control without MAJOR focus to remember and then it begins to hurt after a few hours.
I know, I know ... I try to calm myself with the breathing ... it was failing me, so I asked one of my PT therapist today what she could do ... I was actually lovin' laying with electrodes glued to my cervical area, up to the base of my skull, wrapped in heat, and being "zapped" for 20 minutes .... I can honestly say it was the first time I maintained an entirely shut down brain other than to breath and relax.... then the bell rang.
One comment that seems to be sitting from today is ... I could have laid on that thing hummin' along for a good hour or more .... ohhhhhh ..... what that heat. It was the first real easing of the tension and deep knots that have been residing in that entire area. HOPE .... that was what came to mind.
Ok ... well .... just a small window into my current world. Not my idea of fun ... but ... close the window if you can't handle it. And the last comment was a tidbit of fact that was mentioned to me today by the PT..." a good percentage of relationships fall apart after a head injury." ...... GREAT .... I can't help but think that is another strike that is going to keep me single for the remainder of time..... hahaha .....
Maggie is calling for my attention .... I think she is way more spoiled now as I have done a lot of snuggling with her lately, talking as if she could understand me .... she is just diggin' the overall body rub that I wish I was and/or could get ... and not have to dish out $100 bucks .... LOL.
Good Night to all .... be good to you!!
Peace and Light
et
Friday, February 17, 2012
Call it what you will
Hey WWW ... and those who check in to see what new chaos is happening.
I might as well ramble here, no one else listens to me and it has been primarily Maggie and I, for what seems like forever. Every time I come close to uttering the words "I think I am getting better" .... someone shoots me this odd look and cracks out "maybe a wee bit." WTF ..... seems to have become my mantra on a daily basis, for so many reasons. This post will pretty much give you an idea of how flighty I can be, and I just want you all to know, that this is so beyond frustrating for me, I can only imagine how I am irritating those who have to come in contact with me, with the exception of the staff at the physical therapy place. I can only put a name to, I am thinking only 2 staff members .... the 2 I deal with a majority of the time. However, every time I come through the door the place starts smiling and laughing. On Weds afternoon, HT came with me so we could review the MRIs with the "land therapist", who is also my main gal. Come to find out, I could be the mother to more than half the staff, yet ..... and this flipping makes me laugh ..... and laughing has been a rarity since the accident. ...... lots of dead air space that just hits .... in the middle of a decent thought. I feel very empty, the inside of my head scattered, scrambled, and often times pounding to the point of feeling like it has legs. The feeling of the "ice pick" holding my head on at the base of my skull is a constant ache, and as I become more focused (or attempting), the slightest thing, that never bothered me prior, distracts me, I have no filter ........ which could really go up someones .... knowing how blunt and straightforward I can be on a normal basis ... I am just overall frustrated. Not being able to work a full day, .... I can't begin to thank those that I don't know at work who have donated PTO so that I can get paid my full wages .... that can't go on forever. I feel like I have been tested and tested again, and yet ... still lost. I have to undergo an EMG .... I had one of these done years ago mid 90s ..... I am not looking forward to it on any level, including results. I am trying to arrange another stem cell treatment .... but am trying to let some natural healing take place .... not only that $$$$$$ is beyond tight. I am behind on most everything....... something my mom would say ... "Robbing Peter, to pay Paul." ..... I'm not feeling my usual charming self. I have been told that there are PTSD symptoms present .... NO SHIT SHERLOCK!!!! .... along with trying to get over and cope with my new-found fears since the accident, has brought up some pretty vivid stuff from my past......... being older now ... I have, a small edge .... if I can just dig deep enough to remember where I placed it.
I was very prepared for change in 2012 ..... but this isn't quite what I had in mind..... and currently .... I should probably go to bed .... I can't determine what hurts more after my PT, which I showed up an hour late for, and then waited around town for 2 hours so I did some errands .... can't tell you what right now .... oh well .... now that you are all shaking your heads too, I am going to cover my aching ankle, knee, neck and lumbar spine with as much heat/ice as possible ... if nothing else, Maggie and I will no doubt breathe and sleep pretty clear tonight. To all you male readers ..... How sexy is that!!! ..... LOL ..... It's is about the only thing that HT and I have laughed about in recent weeks. This change from the accident on so many levels has put a real strain on our relationship ..... there are a LOT of raw emotions flowing and it is just another leg of my journey ... HOWEVER, ..... I do believe that this might be my last leg .... how many lives can one person have??? I have been told, I am a tough chick, have more lives than a cat, the shelf life of a Twinkie .... WTF does that mean???? My sharp humor took a hard hit, now I feel like I should dye my hair blonde and just go with it ..... I'm in here ... and I WANT OUT!!!! My brain was the only thing I felt I had left going for me, and I enjoyed and love using it .... clearly and focused .... not always adult, and with my humor ... everything about me is off and I am trying to stay positive, but the pain on so many levels is often hard to take ... I just want to sleep until my brain and my body feel rejuvenated, regenerated ... and that is where another stemmie treatment will come in some MASSIVE ......(sitting here with my mouth open)
I'm done ....
I hope that this rambling finds those who visit happy and healthy.
Be good to yourselves, be good to each other!!!!
Peace and Light
et
I might as well ramble here, no one else listens to me and it has been primarily Maggie and I, for what seems like forever. Every time I come close to uttering the words "I think I am getting better" .... someone shoots me this odd look and cracks out "maybe a wee bit." WTF ..... seems to have become my mantra on a daily basis, for so many reasons. This post will pretty much give you an idea of how flighty I can be, and I just want you all to know, that this is so beyond frustrating for me, I can only imagine how I am irritating those who have to come in contact with me, with the exception of the staff at the physical therapy place. I can only put a name to, I am thinking only 2 staff members .... the 2 I deal with a majority of the time. However, every time I come through the door the place starts smiling and laughing. On Weds afternoon, HT came with me so we could review the MRIs with the "land therapist", who is also my main gal. Come to find out, I could be the mother to more than half the staff, yet ..... and this flipping makes me laugh ..... and laughing has been a rarity since the accident. ...... lots of dead air space that just hits .... in the middle of a decent thought. I feel very empty, the inside of my head scattered, scrambled, and often times pounding to the point of feeling like it has legs. The feeling of the "ice pick" holding my head on at the base of my skull is a constant ache, and as I become more focused (or attempting), the slightest thing, that never bothered me prior, distracts me, I have no filter ........ which could really go up someones .... knowing how blunt and straightforward I can be on a normal basis ... I am just overall frustrated. Not being able to work a full day, .... I can't begin to thank those that I don't know at work who have donated PTO so that I can get paid my full wages .... that can't go on forever. I feel like I have been tested and tested again, and yet ... still lost. I have to undergo an EMG .... I had one of these done years ago mid 90s ..... I am not looking forward to it on any level, including results. I am trying to arrange another stem cell treatment .... but am trying to let some natural healing take place .... not only that $$$$$$ is beyond tight. I am behind on most everything....... something my mom would say ... "Robbing Peter, to pay Paul." ..... I'm not feeling my usual charming self. I have been told that there are PTSD symptoms present .... NO SHIT SHERLOCK!!!! .... along with trying to get over and cope with my new-found fears since the accident, has brought up some pretty vivid stuff from my past......... being older now ... I have, a small edge .... if I can just dig deep enough to remember where I placed it.
I was very prepared for change in 2012 ..... but this isn't quite what I had in mind..... and currently .... I should probably go to bed .... I can't determine what hurts more after my PT, which I showed up an hour late for, and then waited around town for 2 hours so I did some errands .... can't tell you what right now .... oh well .... now that you are all shaking your heads too, I am going to cover my aching ankle, knee, neck and lumbar spine with as much heat/ice as possible ... if nothing else, Maggie and I will no doubt breathe and sleep pretty clear tonight. To all you male readers ..... How sexy is that!!! ..... LOL ..... It's is about the only thing that HT and I have laughed about in recent weeks. This change from the accident on so many levels has put a real strain on our relationship ..... there are a LOT of raw emotions flowing and it is just another leg of my journey ... HOWEVER, ..... I do believe that this might be my last leg .... how many lives can one person have??? I have been told, I am a tough chick, have more lives than a cat, the shelf life of a Twinkie .... WTF does that mean???? My sharp humor took a hard hit, now I feel like I should dye my hair blonde and just go with it ..... I'm in here ... and I WANT OUT!!!! My brain was the only thing I felt I had left going for me, and I enjoyed and love using it .... clearly and focused .... not always adult, and with my humor ... everything about me is off and I am trying to stay positive, but the pain on so many levels is often hard to take ... I just want to sleep until my brain and my body feel rejuvenated, regenerated ... and that is where another stemmie treatment will come in some MASSIVE ......(sitting here with my mouth open)
I'm done ....
I hope that this rambling finds those who visit happy and healthy.
Be good to yourselves, be good to each other!!!!
Peace and Light
et
Sunday, February 12, 2012
A good discussion topic for the US
http://www.sacbee.com/2012/02/12/4255184/these-cells-could-save-lives-but.html
I'm sure there are many other topics we could discuss as well this morning.
Have a good day, be good to yourself, be good to each other!!!
Peace and Light
et
I'm sure there are many other topics we could discuss as well this morning.
Have a good day, be good to yourself, be good to each other!!!
Peace and Light
et
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Generous Donation
Hi Everyone ....
Too much to say, not enough attention and/or drive to stay on track to get it out.
The following link is to an inspiring notation on a very generous donation. If I had access to large monetary availability I would do stuff like this. My wish is to one day start a foundation in which I could help bring stem cell treatments to those of us "common folk" who in deed keep this country going on so many levels. An amazing, self-less gesture to help the greater good of mankind.
I had another thought I wanted to share .... but after sitting here for five minutes trying to recall it I am at a loss, it left as fast as it came into sight. I MAJOR issue these days.
http://pacificpalisades.patch.com/articles/ucla-receives-1m-gift-for-stem-cell-symposium
I hope this posting finds everyone healthy, and still grounded to what is ultimately comforting for oneself.
Be good to yourself, be good to each other!
Peace, Light, and Serenity!!!
et
Too much to say, not enough attention and/or drive to stay on track to get it out.
The following link is to an inspiring notation on a very generous donation. If I had access to large monetary availability I would do stuff like this. My wish is to one day start a foundation in which I could help bring stem cell treatments to those of us "common folk" who in deed keep this country going on so many levels. An amazing, self-less gesture to help the greater good of mankind.
I had another thought I wanted to share .... but after sitting here for five minutes trying to recall it I am at a loss, it left as fast as it came into sight. I MAJOR issue these days.
http://pacificpalisades.patch.com/articles/ucla-receives-1m-gift-for-stem-cell-symposium
I hope this posting finds everyone healthy, and still grounded to what is ultimately comforting for oneself.
Be good to yourself, be good to each other!
Peace, Light, and Serenity!!!
et
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Type 1 Stem cell article
http://www.doctortipster.com/7239-type-1-diabetes-can-be-reversed-using-stem-cell-educator-therapy-according-to-new-study.html
Stemmies ..... Please ..... Please .....
Stemmies ..... Please ..... Please .....
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
I'm sorry I have neglected you
Hey to All!!
I'm sorry for the lack of posting. My head/brain/memory, among many other areas, i.e., my knee, most of my right side, and my lack of balance and vision issues has kept me down and frustrated and I am being forced to listen to my body which has been "badly injured." No shit Sherlock!!!
I can't keep my thoughts flowing freely enough to make an intelligent post, therefor, I will not really be posting unless something slaps me right in the face and then I will share. I am in physical therapy 3 times a week and trying to work, neither is working out so well with other decisions and looking for something that I have no clue where it landed prior to the graduation and where we spread out the remains of stuff that still needs to be mailed off to the siblings.
I hope that everyone enjoyed their holiday celebrations .... I am pretty sure I was heavily sedated and slept though most if not all of the festivities.
Wishing everyone a peaceful and healthy and safe 2012!!!
I hope to be back "with it" soon, Hoping for another shot at the stem cell treatment ...
Peace and Light to all!!
et
I'm sorry for the lack of posting. My head/brain/memory, among many other areas, i.e., my knee, most of my right side, and my lack of balance and vision issues has kept me down and frustrated and I am being forced to listen to my body which has been "badly injured." No shit Sherlock!!!
I can't keep my thoughts flowing freely enough to make an intelligent post, therefor, I will not really be posting unless something slaps me right in the face and then I will share. I am in physical therapy 3 times a week and trying to work, neither is working out so well with other decisions and looking for something that I have no clue where it landed prior to the graduation and where we spread out the remains of stuff that still needs to be mailed off to the siblings.
I hope that everyone enjoyed their holiday celebrations .... I am pretty sure I was heavily sedated and slept though most if not all of the festivities.
Wishing everyone a peaceful and healthy and safe 2012!!!
I hope to be back "with it" soon, Hoping for another shot at the stem cell treatment ...
Peace and Light to all!!
et
Monday, January 2, 2012
Uncharted territory
Hi Everyone!!!
I hope this post finds everyone feeling pretty good this day after new years .... hehehe .... I didn't even make it to 8:00pm so I am no party animal anymore.
I am having a very difficult time trying to deal with these latest issues which presented with the accident. I am supposed to attempt to go back to work tomorrow, along with the already existing BS at work, and a dumb thing I did while under the influence of pain meds and muscle relaxants, I will no doubt have a verbal warning placed on me .... yet another hypercritical call by the HR OZ. Funny I can be reprimanded for a mistake (in which someone accidentally got an email which was meant for someone else .... and it happen to be to a work email). So it would seem that the "F" bomb I laid out in print is going to get my hand slapped, yet it is ok for "rent-a-docs" can shoot off derogatory emails to the support staff and NEVER be required to apologize for personal attacks on the very people who support them. I don't really see much difference here. I guess the bad behavior is only overlooked if you are ..... gee, I don't know .... special ass kissers. Never been part of who I am or how I play the game of life. Don't ask me a question if you are not prepared for the answer you may get.
Anyway .... I went into town this morning .... 3rd time behind the wheel since getting a rental on Thursday. I am not liking it so much. I get extremely anxious and sick to my stomach. I can't be traveling 30 minutes to and from work holding my breath, which seemed to be what was happening. I know if I don't do it, I will never get back to the me I was prior to the accident. My short-term memory is still on the short side, being asked twice in 2 different stores if I was alright, or "can I help you find something?" When in actuality, I just had a major brain cramp in which I completely forget what I was looking for, or where I was going. I know that the repetitiveness will help me overcome this, but I cannot begin to tell you all how frustrating I am finding this state of being. I feel like my humor cells have been sucked out of me and all I am left with is this empty, blank-faced, slightly paranoid, exceptionally anxious woman with no funny bone left.
I will set up the neuro consult tomorrow, confirm when my ortho appointment is and consider the PT for 8 weeks. I am in no financial position to take on any extra medical expenses right off the bat with what fell over from last year. I am petrified of what my future may hold .... I am getting a little old to have to start all over .... again.
I wish everyone a great week!!
Peace and Light
et
I hope this post finds everyone feeling pretty good this day after new years .... hehehe .... I didn't even make it to 8:00pm so I am no party animal anymore.
I am having a very difficult time trying to deal with these latest issues which presented with the accident. I am supposed to attempt to go back to work tomorrow, along with the already existing BS at work, and a dumb thing I did while under the influence of pain meds and muscle relaxants, I will no doubt have a verbal warning placed on me .... yet another hypercritical call by the HR OZ. Funny I can be reprimanded for a mistake (in which someone accidentally got an email which was meant for someone else .... and it happen to be to a work email). So it would seem that the "F" bomb I laid out in print is going to get my hand slapped, yet it is ok for "rent-a-docs" can shoot off derogatory emails to the support staff and NEVER be required to apologize for personal attacks on the very people who support them. I don't really see much difference here. I guess the bad behavior is only overlooked if you are ..... gee, I don't know .... special ass kissers. Never been part of who I am or how I play the game of life. Don't ask me a question if you are not prepared for the answer you may get.
Anyway .... I went into town this morning .... 3rd time behind the wheel since getting a rental on Thursday. I am not liking it so much. I get extremely anxious and sick to my stomach. I can't be traveling 30 minutes to and from work holding my breath, which seemed to be what was happening. I know if I don't do it, I will never get back to the me I was prior to the accident. My short-term memory is still on the short side, being asked twice in 2 different stores if I was alright, or "can I help you find something?" When in actuality, I just had a major brain cramp in which I completely forget what I was looking for, or where I was going. I know that the repetitiveness will help me overcome this, but I cannot begin to tell you all how frustrating I am finding this state of being. I feel like my humor cells have been sucked out of me and all I am left with is this empty, blank-faced, slightly paranoid, exceptionally anxious woman with no funny bone left.
I will set up the neuro consult tomorrow, confirm when my ortho appointment is and consider the PT for 8 weeks. I am in no financial position to take on any extra medical expenses right off the bat with what fell over from last year. I am petrified of what my future may hold .... I am getting a little old to have to start all over .... again.
I wish everyone a great week!!
Peace and Light
et
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Day one and it begins ....
Laughter is not always “the best medicine,” sometimes its just “the best disguise." Unknown.
This is where I currently sit. I am fearful, I guess that is the best word I can come up with currently. I am having a hard time (more verbally) coming up with the words I want to use, or just lose what thought was right there at any given moment, for no apparent reason. (sorry for the large font, it seems to be the only thing I can focus on).
I often was anguished when my mother had this difficulty, and now I can completely understand her frustration. I had much more patience with her than I am having with myself. I want me back ... NOW, and I have no idea of what to expect, how to help correct it, can it be corrected? or will this just be one more thing I am "going to have to learn to live with." I am feeling very much alone (good and bad), Maggie has gone above and beyond for her master and remains close by my side most of each day. I am supposed to return to work on Tuesday. I am not sure how this is all going to play out, for a couple of reasons, 1., my own fears of being able to comprehend my job tasks and apply appropriately, and 2. I did a stupid thing with my email ... and it got blown out of control ... as usual ... and Oz will be (so it says) on the first things addressed. Gee .... and I thought the bad behavior was rewarded .... seems as that is the way it has played out for the past few years. I really do need to find a job in which it really is okay to speak your opinions and not be told you have "a bad attitude." Would be so much better if the higher ups weren't so contradicting in their communication .... rules for some, don't apply to all. I see myself being used as an "example." ...... and then watch it hit the fan!!!
I can only cope with so much, and as I sit currently, my health and well-being is most important right now.
I hope that all enjoyed safe and happy new year's eve celebrations and had a nice, non painful, New Years Day!!
All the best in 2012~~
Peace and Light
et
This is where I currently sit. I am fearful, I guess that is the best word I can come up with currently. I am having a hard time (more verbally) coming up with the words I want to use, or just lose what thought was right there at any given moment, for no apparent reason. (sorry for the large font, it seems to be the only thing I can focus on).
I often was anguished when my mother had this difficulty, and now I can completely understand her frustration. I had much more patience with her than I am having with myself. I want me back ... NOW, and I have no idea of what to expect, how to help correct it, can it be corrected? or will this just be one more thing I am "going to have to learn to live with." I am feeling very much alone (good and bad), Maggie has gone above and beyond for her master and remains close by my side most of each day. I am supposed to return to work on Tuesday. I am not sure how this is all going to play out, for a couple of reasons, 1., my own fears of being able to comprehend my job tasks and apply appropriately, and 2. I did a stupid thing with my email ... and it got blown out of control ... as usual ... and Oz will be (so it says) on the first things addressed. Gee .... and I thought the bad behavior was rewarded .... seems as that is the way it has played out for the past few years. I really do need to find a job in which it really is okay to speak your opinions and not be told you have "a bad attitude." Would be so much better if the higher ups weren't so contradicting in their communication .... rules for some, don't apply to all. I see myself being used as an "example." ...... and then watch it hit the fan!!!
I can only cope with so much, and as I sit currently, my health and well-being is most important right now.
I hope that all enjoyed safe and happy new year's eve celebrations and had a nice, non painful, New Years Day!!
All the best in 2012~~
Peace and Light
et
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Most of you have already arrived in 2012
... so in a way you will save me from the clitche' phrase ....
I would like to wish everyone around the world the opportunity to obtain peace, love, tranquility, good health and prosperity on every level.
May we strive as individuals to do unto others .... I anticipate too many changes for me in 2012, therefore I will refrain from that nasty habit of making resolutions.
In good health, good spirit
Peace and Light today and always
et
I would like to wish everyone around the world the opportunity to obtain peace, love, tranquility, good health and prosperity on every level.
May we strive as individuals to do unto others .... I anticipate too many changes for me in 2012, therefore I will refrain from that nasty habit of making resolutions.
In good health, good spirit
Peace and Light today and always
et
Friday, December 30, 2011
As Eric Clapton's tune goes ...
"If I didn't have bad luck baby, I wouldn't have no luck at all" ..... Excellent tune, however, I am really down on the perseverance treadmill. I have been exceptionally tired since the accident, actually before with the surgery, then the infection, etc. etc. etc. you get the picture. I do not like the feelings that have come to the surface, I feel very distant, lost, exceptionaly "twitchy", and blank in my facial expressions. Imagine a dirty joke going right over my head ... ??? .... doesn't usually happen, but has become the norm ... again, I don't like it.
Since the accident, which is almost 3 weeks now, I have been fuzzy, both visually and overall. I can't remember much of anything that has transpired since the accident. No one can tell me how long this may go on, so I have no choice but to try and plow ahead or just go to sleep and hope for the best. I haven't been sleeping well, lots of either bad dreams (none I can remember) but I am told that a few "blood curdling screams" have come from my bedroom. There is a lot going on with me, within me, emotionally, spiritually, and health wise, etc. I know there are many that may be worse off then I am, however, I am really getting worn down with hit after hit, or so it seems, no real relief, no real gain, just run, run as fast as you can.
As we begin a new year, in which I can only hope, that nothing could be as bad as this past couple. I would like to wish to those who follow, the wisdom to do great things, the ability to see yourself (ourselves) as human and therefore, as humans, we treat each other how we our self would like to be treated. I have always tried to place this forward in my relationships, and as we all know, some people just never "get it."
I will continue to sign off in my usual manner,
To All My Readers this past year, I wish to you a peaceful, happy, healthy, and prosperous NEW YEAR!!!
Keep learning, keep expanding, keep the drive alive.
In Peace and Light
et
Since the accident, which is almost 3 weeks now, I have been fuzzy, both visually and overall. I can't remember much of anything that has transpired since the accident. No one can tell me how long this may go on, so I have no choice but to try and plow ahead or just go to sleep and hope for the best. I haven't been sleeping well, lots of either bad dreams (none I can remember) but I am told that a few "blood curdling screams" have come from my bedroom. There is a lot going on with me, within me, emotionally, spiritually, and health wise, etc. I know there are many that may be worse off then I am, however, I am really getting worn down with hit after hit, or so it seems, no real relief, no real gain, just run, run as fast as you can.
As we begin a new year, in which I can only hope, that nothing could be as bad as this past couple. I would like to wish to those who follow, the wisdom to do great things, the ability to see yourself (ourselves) as human and therefore, as humans, we treat each other how we our self would like to be treated. I have always tried to place this forward in my relationships, and as we all know, some people just never "get it."
I will continue to sign off in my usual manner,
To All My Readers this past year, I wish to you a peaceful, happy, healthy, and prosperous NEW YEAR!!!
Keep learning, keep expanding, keep the drive alive.
In Peace and Light
et
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Happiest of the season
Good Morning,
Just a quick little post ... 'quick' ... a word which has not been in my vocabulary for some weeks now.
It has been 11 days since the accident and I can't remember more than perhaps 2 encounters ... ?? What's up with that? I roam aimlessly around the house, which lucky for me, isn't that big, but big enough to forget what I am trying to do. I guess this could play to my advantage. Christmas will be more than quiet here in AZ, me trying to regain brain power ... HT will be working, it will be the first Holiday without both my parents .... and my siblings too. It has been a year of ups and downs, and currently, it would seem more down .... but this has given me time to reflect on my blessings and those in my life that are true and total blessings!!! I don't know how I would cope or survive without the unconditional love in which I feel from these special souls. THANK YOU!!!
To my readers, many of which I have no idea who you are, but I deeply appreciate your "stopping by" every now and again to gather information or just other's opinions. I am hoping 2012 brings more discussion, and more ways to support each other in our quest for cures.
On that note, I am going to go rest my brain, which apparently, according to friends, means "BE A VEGETABLE" .... "lay down, watch some movies you've seen a 100 times .... NO THINKING, NO TRYING TO DO THINGS!!" "REST!!!" Yes, I know this ... feels like that has been all I am capable of .. except I am having a hard time operating remote controls, so the only movies I have seen are the ones on the dish..... and I think my humor took a big hit, seems as most everything is going right over my head .... ?? I wish someone could tell me how one gets dizzy in their sleep ... ?? There will be lots of rest today and tomorrow, I'm not sleeping well due in large part to this feeling of being dizzy and spinning, even in my sleep.... I'm sure this is adding to what some find amusing, however, I find it frustrating.
I would like to wish you all a very special holiday season whatever your beliefs.
Travel safe and have a WONDERFUL DAY and a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!!!
Just a quick little post ... 'quick' ... a word which has not been in my vocabulary for some weeks now.
To my readers, many of which I have no idea who you are, but I deeply appreciate your "stopping by" every now and again to gather information or just other's opinions. I am hoping 2012 brings more discussion, and more ways to support each other in our quest for cures.
On that note, I am going to go rest my brain, which apparently, according to friends, means "BE A VEGETABLE" .... "lay down, watch some movies you've seen a 100 times .... NO THINKING, NO TRYING TO DO THINGS!!" "REST!!!" Yes, I know this ... feels like that has been all I am capable of .. except I am having a hard time operating remote controls, so the only movies I have seen are the ones on the dish..... and I think my humor took a big hit, seems as most everything is going right over my head .... ?? I wish someone could tell me how one gets dizzy in their sleep ... ?? There will be lots of rest today and tomorrow, I'm not sleeping well due in large part to this feeling of being dizzy and spinning, even in my sleep.... I'm sure this is adding to what some find amusing, however, I find it frustrating.
I would like to wish you all a very special holiday season whatever your beliefs.
Travel safe and have a WONDERFUL DAY and a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!!!
Sunday, December 18, 2011
I am alive, I am ok ... just need to heal and combat the anxiety
Hi everyone ....
Sorry about lack of posts .... I was involved in an accident on Tuesday afternoon (not my fault and weather was bad, not that that factor should play a role) .... things have not been the best physically, emotionally, or in the over-anxiety department landing in the ER again on Friday afternoon after seeing my PCP .... I apparently am suffering from concussive/post-concussion symptoms ... my "can't remember shit" is at a whole new level in which I am not handling well, along with intensified anxiety and apparent "noise in my sleep." Bruises on the rest of me are attempting to heal, swelling is going down, pain seems to be less intense today, but my tummy is still on a rampage with any sort of real movement.
It is raining today, good day to curl up with my baby-dog, and take the drugs as instructed (which are making me sick) and just allow my body to heal, as the more I try to move around, the more sick and disoriented I become.
I don't want and/or can't say much more ..... other than I saw my car for the first time on Friday and didn't react so well .... I am, however, very GRATEFUL to be alive ...
If I don't get an opportunity to post again before weekend, I would like to wish everyone a Peaceful, Joyous, Healthy and Merry Christmas!!!!!
With Peace, Light, and much Love
et
Sorry about lack of posts .... I was involved in an accident on Tuesday afternoon (not my fault and weather was bad, not that that factor should play a role) .... things have not been the best physically, emotionally, or in the over-anxiety department landing in the ER again on Friday afternoon after seeing my PCP .... I apparently am suffering from concussive/post-concussion symptoms ... my "can't remember shit" is at a whole new level in which I am not handling well, along with intensified anxiety and apparent "noise in my sleep." Bruises on the rest of me are attempting to heal, swelling is going down, pain seems to be less intense today, but my tummy is still on a rampage with any sort of real movement.
It is raining today, good day to curl up with my baby-dog, and take the drugs as instructed (which are making me sick) and just allow my body to heal, as the more I try to move around, the more sick and disoriented I become.
I don't want and/or can't say much more ..... other than I saw my car for the first time on Friday and didn't react so well .... I am, however, very GRATEFUL to be alive ...
If I don't get an opportunity to post again before weekend, I would like to wish everyone a Peaceful, Joyous, Healthy and Merry Christmas!!!!!
With Peace, Light, and much Love
et
Thursday, December 8, 2011
In honor of ...
My beautiful daughter, Hillary, will graduate on Saturday afternoon with her RN degree. I am so very proud of this young woman who has overcome some of life's deep losses over the past 3 years and yet refused to give up!! I wish her much success and happiness in launching her new career and going to places she never dreamed of.... she is bound to make a mark in the medical field, and for that, I am forever grateful!!!
CONGRATULATIONS and I LOVE YOU!!!
CONGRATULATIONS and I LOVE YOU!!!
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Very cool
http://www.signonsandiego.com/news/2011/dec/01/scientists-create-first-video-attack-causes-diabet/?sciquest
There is a video with this article. I found this very interesting.
Have a good evening!!
Peace and Light
et
There is a video with this article. I found this very interesting.
Have a good evening!!
Peace and Light
et
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Another good read on the stem cell front
I don't discriminate ... good info, is good info ...
http://www.stemcellmx.com/controlling-stem-cells-new-breakthrough/
http://www.stemcellmx.com/controlling-stem-cells-new-breakthrough/
Artifical Pancreas update
http://www.cnn.com/2011/11/26/health/artificial-pancreas-diabetes-patients/
An excellent article on the progress of the artificial pancreas. This is just another option for the cure. Although I know it has been in the works for years, and now with potential FDA approval, I wonder what the cost to an average patient will be, and what sort of loop holes we may have to jump through to get placed on a list to have one. There is no doubt criteria in which must be met prior to being accepted for one. As a patient, I just am always shaking my head as to WHY there must be so much politics involved in the care of the American public, not just the rich.
Enjoy the article, I think the JDRF on on course to conquer soon, this project, and research into the stem cell avenue as well. Check out their website off to the right or www.jdrf.org
Have a wonderful evening!!!
Peace and Light
et
An excellent article on the progress of the artificial pancreas. This is just another option for the cure. Although I know it has been in the works for years, and now with potential FDA approval, I wonder what the cost to an average patient will be, and what sort of loop holes we may have to jump through to get placed on a list to have one. There is no doubt criteria in which must be met prior to being accepted for one. As a patient, I just am always shaking my head as to WHY there must be so much politics involved in the care of the American public, not just the rich.
Enjoy the article, I think the JDRF on on course to conquer soon, this project, and research into the stem cell avenue as well. Check out their website off to the right or www.jdrf.org
Have a wonderful evening!!!
Peace and Light
et
Monday, November 28, 2011
No Lies
Hey All!!
I hope that all who celebrated had a wonderful Thanksgiving and enjoyed the nice long weekend.
I will not lie, and this will be a short post. I am down, anxious, tired, I hurt physically (lots of tossing and moving been taking place). I want change for myself for 2012, I want it now. I am anxious over so many things, and with this being the first holiday season without my parents have been adding to the depression. Every time I look or say something to my girl child she starts crying or looks like she just lost her best friend. She is missing my mom most of all right now. My mother was such an influence on Hillary's outlook on life, education, and relationships. I keep trying to reassure her that Grandma may not be here physically, but I do believe that she is with us, in our hearts, and watching proudly from above. I too, miss her terribly lately. I just wish I could talk with her again, long, long, long talk. There are so many things that remain on my plate, that all seem to be some sort of life altering happening, and I can't avoid these things. I know, and am prepared for the fall out, or success of such actions, however, I feel very much alone in recent months. I am also very excited about what my near future may hold for me, again, I would like to have someone close to be able to share it with me and laugh and cry at the accomplishments I hope to attain.
I am taking a weekend to spend with a dear friend of mine, this too, I am feeling anxious about, too many wierd happenings, dreams, feelings, etc. ..... are these signs?? If so I don't want to miss them ... I can be a little dizzy at times and often find myself thinking, damn, if only .... well, I always try to go with my gut feeling, given my gut can be exceptionally sensitive, gives me a lot of those questionable moments. I am going to try hard to relax, enjoy our time together and the potential of talking to the other side ... heheheh .... we have tickets to see John Edward of "Talking to the Other Side" fame. I don't really expect anything, but how bizarre would that be to be singled out due to "chatter" or "loud discussions" from the other side. You know what the saying is, 'what happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas.' The following week, .... well .... this is going to be a bittersweet accomplishment, but I am so incredibly proud of my 22 year old daughter and this major goal under her wing, and hopefully, having gained a little more wisdom in where and how she continues her life. I wish her the very best, much happiness, and the wings to fly where ever her heart and mind want to go.
Thanks for your continued support in my quest to find the cure, and promote the adult stem cell treatments.
I wish you all a relaxing and peaceful evening!!!
Peace and Light
et
I hope that all who celebrated had a wonderful Thanksgiving and enjoyed the nice long weekend.
I will not lie, and this will be a short post. I am down, anxious, tired, I hurt physically (lots of tossing and moving been taking place). I want change for myself for 2012, I want it now. I am anxious over so many things, and with this being the first holiday season without my parents have been adding to the depression. Every time I look or say something to my girl child she starts crying or looks like she just lost her best friend. She is missing my mom most of all right now. My mother was such an influence on Hillary's outlook on life, education, and relationships. I keep trying to reassure her that Grandma may not be here physically, but I do believe that she is with us, in our hearts, and watching proudly from above. I too, miss her terribly lately. I just wish I could talk with her again, long, long, long talk. There are so many things that remain on my plate, that all seem to be some sort of life altering happening, and I can't avoid these things. I know, and am prepared for the fall out, or success of such actions, however, I feel very much alone in recent months. I am also very excited about what my near future may hold for me, again, I would like to have someone close to be able to share it with me and laugh and cry at the accomplishments I hope to attain.
I am taking a weekend to spend with a dear friend of mine, this too, I am feeling anxious about, too many wierd happenings, dreams, feelings, etc. ..... are these signs?? If so I don't want to miss them ... I can be a little dizzy at times and often find myself thinking, damn, if only .... well, I always try to go with my gut feeling, given my gut can be exceptionally sensitive, gives me a lot of those questionable moments. I am going to try hard to relax, enjoy our time together and the potential of talking to the other side ... heheheh .... we have tickets to see John Edward of "Talking to the Other Side" fame. I don't really expect anything, but how bizarre would that be to be singled out due to "chatter" or "loud discussions" from the other side. You know what the saying is, 'what happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas.' The following week, .... well .... this is going to be a bittersweet accomplishment, but I am so incredibly proud of my 22 year old daughter and this major goal under her wing, and hopefully, having gained a little more wisdom in where and how she continues her life. I wish her the very best, much happiness, and the wings to fly where ever her heart and mind want to go.
Thanks for your continued support in my quest to find the cure, and promote the adult stem cell treatments.
I wish you all a relaxing and peaceful evening!!!
Peace and Light
et
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!
I just wanted to wish everyone a very blessed, loving, peaceful, and joyous Thanksgiving!!!
HT and I will spend a few hours with friends .... and I am recovering from a lingering infection from my surgery last month. I am very thankful for all my friends and loved ones who make me feel just that, LOVED!! For that I will be forever grateful for your friendships and love, and of course, all the laughs we have shared.
Peace and Light
et
HT and I will spend a few hours with friends .... and I am recovering from a lingering infection from my surgery last month. I am very thankful for all my friends and loved ones who make me feel just that, LOVED!! For that I will be forever grateful for your friendships and love, and of course, all the laughs we have shared.
Peace and Light
et
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Trivial Stats ...
Hey everyone ...
While taking a break from my to-do list today, I am here checking to see the happenings of this past week in blog terms. The US was 1st in readers this past week with 35, and coming in 2nd, one of my all-time favorite places to visit, the Netherlands!! I was under the impression that stem cell treatments are being done in the Netherlands?? Anyone help me out with this information?? This is a place in which if I had a clue how I could do it, would relocate to this rich place of friendly people, beautiful scenery, rich in history and culture, just a great city was Amsterdam, I had such a wonderful time that I wished my trip could have lasted just a little bit longer. Although I speak no Dutch, and had a hard time understanding sometimes, the people were fun and friendly, and very helpful. Was just a beautiful place .... thank you to my friends abroad!!! <3
Top 5 were --- US; Netherlands; Romania; Germany, and Canada!!
I find this just amazing and awe-inspiring. I don't think I am anyone special. I am just a single mom, of a now adult daughter, trying to make it ... or at this point, I'm just trying to survive in a manner in which I am not losing any more of my already precious energy. Hoping that now that I find myself very much alone in my cocoon, the lil-one wanting to fly the nest (as she should) and no one to care for other then myself, that I should come to some sort of terms with what may or may not lie ahead for me. Currently, as in this moment, I am still not feeling right, spoke with the girl-child earlier and her and her nurse were trying to talk me into going into the ER. As noted in the earlier post, I apparently have a staph infection, those don't usually just go away with one course of antibiotic. All the issues I have had in regard to this latest removal of yet some more of me, I am just so beat up. This insurance company needs some serious renovations, just like the folks that contracted with them. I am just so tired, achy, weak, dizzier than my norm :D and odd ... and nothing is touching the pain of the deep areas of tissue. Oh well, I am currently sitting in the chaise with a cup of New England Cranberry Tea and heating my neck. Dog is actually on another piece of the furniture tonight, she has been right at my side, or on top of me, beside me, but always having contact since prior to my surgery. I hope that is a good sign ... either that or she is just pissed at me for not being able to sit still, not being able to get comfortable.
I wish I had a built in masseuse these days, and a jacuzzi ... I would be and could be, very content with those pieces of relief in my life .... and a few more bushes to ensure my privacy. Dreamin' .... I'm always dreaming.
A dream you dream alone is only a dream. A dream you dream together is reality.
John Lennon
Wishing the world a peaceful evening.
While taking a break from my to-do list today, I am here checking to see the happenings of this past week in blog terms. The US was 1st in readers this past week with 35, and coming in 2nd, one of my all-time favorite places to visit, the Netherlands!! I was under the impression that stem cell treatments are being done in the Netherlands?? Anyone help me out with this information?? This is a place in which if I had a clue how I could do it, would relocate to this rich place of friendly people, beautiful scenery, rich in history and culture, just a great city was Amsterdam, I had such a wonderful time that I wished my trip could have lasted just a little bit longer. Although I speak no Dutch, and had a hard time understanding sometimes, the people were fun and friendly, and very helpful. Was just a beautiful place .... thank you to my friends abroad!!! <3
Top 5 were --- US; Netherlands; Romania; Germany, and Canada!!
I find this just amazing and awe-inspiring. I don't think I am anyone special. I am just a single mom, of a now adult daughter, trying to make it ... or at this point, I'm just trying to survive in a manner in which I am not losing any more of my already precious energy. Hoping that now that I find myself very much alone in my cocoon, the lil-one wanting to fly the nest (as she should) and no one to care for other then myself, that I should come to some sort of terms with what may or may not lie ahead for me. Currently, as in this moment, I am still not feeling right, spoke with the girl-child earlier and her and her nurse were trying to talk me into going into the ER. As noted in the earlier post, I apparently have a staph infection, those don't usually just go away with one course of antibiotic. All the issues I have had in regard to this latest removal of yet some more of me, I am just so beat up. This insurance company needs some serious renovations, just like the folks that contracted with them. I am just so tired, achy, weak, dizzier than my norm :D and odd ... and nothing is touching the pain of the deep areas of tissue. Oh well, I am currently sitting in the chaise with a cup of New England Cranberry Tea and heating my neck. Dog is actually on another piece of the furniture tonight, she has been right at my side, or on top of me, beside me, but always having contact since prior to my surgery. I hope that is a good sign ... either that or she is just pissed at me for not being able to sit still, not being able to get comfortable.
I wish I had a built in masseuse these days, and a jacuzzi ... I would be and could be, very content with those pieces of relief in my life .... and a few more bushes to ensure my privacy. Dreamin' .... I'm always dreaming.
A dream you dream alone is only a dream. A dream you dream together is reality.
John Lennon
Wishing the world a peaceful evening.
Peace and Light, ... and serenity.
et
Not at my Best
Good Saturday Afternoon;
I'm sorry I haven't made a post in a few days .... I haven't been at my best, and that is stating it mildly. I have been sick to my stomach now for almost 3 weeks. I saw the surgeon on Weds. morning, I thought for sure I would have been cut loose, however, it seems as though all that was drained from my incision is/was harboring a staph infection. Okay, well, I thought my gut issues, being dizzy, feeling like I just want to ... your know, RALPH!!? I have very little appetite as nothing tastes all that great, and my gut, is just so nauseated. I don't want to irritate it any more than it already is. The water factor is another issue. I was on a sulfur based antibiotic for 10 days, like being sucked dry from the inside out. Figured maybe these were just residual effects....?? My incision looks good, I thought .... however, I must return in one week. Okay, so now I am thinking, is this infection eradicated yet or what?? My hips, pelvic area, and lower back have this horrible ache to them, like that portion of my body weights about 10x what it should.
I've been trying to do some cleaning, rearranging, etc. We do have a holiday, a graduation, a holiday open house, etc .... maybe no one will show up .... I can finally see my living room again, my dad having passed 3 months ago yesterday! I still have belongings I am just not interested in keeping, have divided up some photos and things that brought back childhood memories of some sort and placed them in appropriate boxes for each sibling. I am no doubt going to pay for this as well. I have dished out more of my own $$ on this, that I think the rest of them can divide up any cremation costs and whatever else THEY want to do. I have my memories, and NO ONE can take those away from me. I hold them close, and they mean so much more than any piece of material possession. My mother made sure I had those prior to her passing. At this time of year, I find myself missing her OH so much. I could and would be so comforted to feel her close ... we had this hand holding thing .... so many of our photos together showing us holding each others hand.
Oh well ... As much as I know it happens to even the best, I am blue on so many fronts I can't see straight. I feel as I have just been spinning now for weeks and am going absolutely no where. My blood sugars have been sort of up and down, I think it is in part to stress at work, stress at home due to works inability to manage as proactive instead of reactive, and the constant rewarding of bad behaviors. I had my surgeon appointment, and a dermatology follow up on a few "spots" we have been watching for the past 6 months, being told the only one looking suspicious and presenting as classic basal cell skin cancer is right on my freakin' lower eye lid!!! Yes Sir, I want you hacking at what little face I have that remains presentable. I couldn't cope with the cut on Weds, so we will let this one ride .... 3 months was what I was given ... then it comes off ... I am in desperate need of a stemmie booster, and am really hoping and praying that it happens in the next couple of months, and perhaps .... right here in the US!!!
I need to try and move again, like I said, I'm not feeling right, and my blood pressure keeps dropping to where I get dizzy .... I'm taking it slow, but I need to take it now.
Wishing Everyone a wonderful weekend, a week of happy and safe travels ....
Remember to be thankful .... I have so much to be thankful for ... I just want to reflect on that at this time and prepare for what the future holds.
Peace and Light
et
I'm sorry I haven't made a post in a few days .... I haven't been at my best, and that is stating it mildly. I have been sick to my stomach now for almost 3 weeks. I saw the surgeon on Weds. morning, I thought for sure I would have been cut loose, however, it seems as though all that was drained from my incision is/was harboring a staph infection. Okay, well, I thought my gut issues, being dizzy, feeling like I just want to ... your know, RALPH!!? I have very little appetite as nothing tastes all that great, and my gut, is just so nauseated. I don't want to irritate it any more than it already is. The water factor is another issue. I was on a sulfur based antibiotic for 10 days, like being sucked dry from the inside out. Figured maybe these were just residual effects....?? My incision looks good, I thought .... however, I must return in one week. Okay, so now I am thinking, is this infection eradicated yet or what?? My hips, pelvic area, and lower back have this horrible ache to them, like that portion of my body weights about 10x what it should.
I've been trying to do some cleaning, rearranging, etc. We do have a holiday, a graduation, a holiday open house, etc .... maybe no one will show up .... I can finally see my living room again, my dad having passed 3 months ago yesterday! I still have belongings I am just not interested in keeping, have divided up some photos and things that brought back childhood memories of some sort and placed them in appropriate boxes for each sibling. I am no doubt going to pay for this as well. I have dished out more of my own $$ on this, that I think the rest of them can divide up any cremation costs and whatever else THEY want to do. I have my memories, and NO ONE can take those away from me. I hold them close, and they mean so much more than any piece of material possession. My mother made sure I had those prior to her passing. At this time of year, I find myself missing her OH so much. I could and would be so comforted to feel her close ... we had this hand holding thing .... so many of our photos together showing us holding each others hand.
Oh well ... As much as I know it happens to even the best, I am blue on so many fronts I can't see straight. I feel as I have just been spinning now for weeks and am going absolutely no where. My blood sugars have been sort of up and down, I think it is in part to stress at work, stress at home due to works inability to manage as proactive instead of reactive, and the constant rewarding of bad behaviors. I had my surgeon appointment, and a dermatology follow up on a few "spots" we have been watching for the past 6 months, being told the only one looking suspicious and presenting as classic basal cell skin cancer is right on my freakin' lower eye lid!!! Yes Sir, I want you hacking at what little face I have that remains presentable. I couldn't cope with the cut on Weds, so we will let this one ride .... 3 months was what I was given ... then it comes off ... I am in desperate need of a stemmie booster, and am really hoping and praying that it happens in the next couple of months, and perhaps .... right here in the US!!!
I need to try and move again, like I said, I'm not feeling right, and my blood pressure keeps dropping to where I get dizzy .... I'm taking it slow, but I need to take it now.
Wishing Everyone a wonderful weekend, a week of happy and safe travels ....
Remember to be thankful .... I have so much to be thankful for ... I just want to reflect on that at this time and prepare for what the future holds.
Peace and Light
et
Friday, November 11, 2011
My Balls have fallen ...
OMG !!! BEWARE - IGNORANCE ABOUND!!!
Thought I would at least say something if I was going to scream. :)
Recap - check last post titled "WOW."
This past week, and a short one at that, has been pure and total hell. I know I have been dealing with some pretty stressful shit in my own life. At work, as stated earlier, I in all reality came back to a mess due to others not doing and/or caring about how thier tasks directly affect other's job duties, causing delays, .... and a few other things as well. Piss-poor management .... (sorry, this post my become heated with no real notice ... hehehe). I have had a day or so to let the ultimate effects of the happenings this week when on Wednesday I was ready to pack my boxes and all the shit I have that is mine in the office due in part to ... inadequate working conditions. This is so not funny, however, I was working in a basement @ the hospital and freezing my ass off for 8+ hours a day for a year and no one gave a shit if I was cold. More than 1 co-worker began complaining ... or as it became by Tuesday...constant bitching. I sit right behind the front desk, in an enclosed office with another. I had not only the door closed, but my headphones into my iPod and I could still her bitchin' through the glass. This turned into 4+ hours of people convening outside our office door. PEOPLE!!!! Ok .. you get the picture. On Wednesday morning I came in to an email stating was going to be paid for only a certain amount of hours because I apparently ran out of EIT time with no notification. This was an issue that I had thought of, and it wasn't like the "uppers" didn't know the situation, i.e., not only my close coworkers, but my supervisor, and the illustrious "OZ" (this is my latest visual, you know, Oz, blowing smoke up your ass from behind the curtain??). I put in for my time as recommended by the surgeon, I had the note x2 due to the infection and then being out another week, and now restricted until 11/17 (yes, that is a week away!) This email states at 7:55 PM the night before, that my check will be short this week. "Just wanted you to have a heads up." "A HEADS UP!!!" Sorry folks, but less than 12 hours prior to payday IS NOT a heads up, it is more like a think quick!!! When I responded to the almighty Oz, I had an attitude, I was pissed to put it mildly. EVERY single time I have had to deal with Oz for the past year-to-14 months she pulls some two-faced move on myself and a couple of others I know of personally. I apparently know more than I care too. In any event, with the already late 1st of the month bills, I only took home less than half of what a normal pay period looks like, putting me not only behind at work, but 2 months behind in reality at home as well. What made me go off was not only my continuing recovery (although physically better this week), but all the petty complaining of the same scenarios, same characters, MAJOR lack of, if any, communication, and ... NO change ... it's like watching Ground Hogs Day ... 100 times in a row. Sorry, but I don't think too many people would find it remained as amusing after so many repeats. Redundant, and sucking the morale out of those left that have been continually cleaning up the messes. When the problems are staring you right in the face, and you have facts to back them up, consequences should be paid. I know, hands down, I irritate some people, however, I also know, that if people ENJOY coming to work, they do a good job, excel, etc. I have given more than a 100% of my healthy time to this place, know that as a support member of the docs/NP/techs/counselors, you get it .... you have all heard the term, "shit rolls downhill"? .... and then the clincher .... and all I know was this email came in just as I was leaving on Wednesday from what I would refer to as a "rent-a-doc". This 30-something ,high maintained little 'dahktah' ... LMAO ... had the class of a highly-educated professional, to in one line, take me down like I hadn't been taken down since I was married!!! You have heard me write before, I don't care what sort of initials you have after your name, there is no need to talk down to people. I try not to do this, and I try to do this by keeping things comfortable. I am not a "Stepford" worker, or human being either. I have a life, lame as it may be for some, I don't need this mentality from a person I am too show up for work for to SUPPORT and she is calling me "arrogant."
What can I say??.. she pushed my last dying button. I shot off a snotty little one liner myself to the people she felt are going take care of me. She wants no more communication with the "arrogant transcriptionist!" BITE ME BIMBALINA, I'm the coder!!! I was seething at this point. I haven't been the pissed/which in reality was a deep, deep hurt. For the 1st time in many years, yes, even with disagreements in relationships, have I been spoken to in such a tone ... and a doctor to boot. I admire your education, you may know a whole lot more than I, however, your words were harsh for someone you only met for 30 seconds and feel you are "entitled," ROFLMAO ..... yep, I am laughing now. I live by, and have raised my daughter, that respect is a 2-way street. This provider started with a clean slate, she messed up, she messed up again, and again, each time becoming more demanding, i.e., this is how I do it, it's approved by Harvard, BFD!!! .... (Hello, she has no idea Harvard is my neck of the woods ... hehehe..... for all I know Hillary's baby stroller is still hanging off the little walking bridge there in Harvard square. :D
Let me tell you all a little secret, and I think some out there may even affirm this statement .... I may have been born and raised in a small mill town, and my parents my have been considered "blue-collar" workers, my parents, more my mother, made sure that we understood respect and manners. No, I don't always have manners when I state things so crudely at times, call it my rough edge. Everyone who knows me will tell you I try to appear as though I have a very hard, tough outer shell. Well, I am born under the sign of the Crab, and my mother often told me that it was totally appropriate for me. :) I do like to believe that people are good, but this was just one more example of poor management, unethical and down-right mean demands on those who are you main back bone under the providers. I am tired of being treated like a doormat, again, not having felt like this since the early 90's. I swore that I would never become a victim of that again, I don't care if you are male OR female.
Let's wrap this up, I need to get off the box ... hehehe....I am off today, praise the Gods!! With the exception of 2 side job projects which need to be completed and sent off. Then I am going to do some cleaning as we (a friend came over to help Hilly) moved some furniture around last night, I had to supervise as Nurse Ratchet was in the house. :) She is still looking out for me despite me telling her it's all lookin' good. She doesn't want me to push it, understood, however, I need to keep me as busy as possible and get all this stuff accomplished in time, 4 weeks from yesterday ... lol... she is totally stoked. Apparently my friends, who also work with me, have decided I am depressed, and yet another one on the band wagon of "your life sucks!" .... all in good humor of course, but I think they are right. I can't even keep track anymore lately ... time for some more stemmies.
Ok kids, I need to go "prick" as I am feeling 'fuzzy' and I get the impression that perhaps I wandered a bit in my thoughts and expression the last couple of paragraphs. I do know I used NO real names, and no places .... LMAO ....
Forgive me ... it's how I felt.
Wishing everyone a great weekend.
Thank a Veteran and/or an active military member for the right to speak like this out in Cosmo.
Peace and Light ... and respect!!!
et
Thought I would at least say something if I was going to scream. :)
Recap - check last post titled "WOW."
This past week, and a short one at that, has been pure and total hell. I know I have been dealing with some pretty stressful shit in my own life. At work, as stated earlier, I in all reality came back to a mess due to others not doing and/or caring about how thier tasks directly affect other's job duties, causing delays, .... and a few other things as well. Piss-poor management .... (sorry, this post my become heated with no real notice ... hehehe). I have had a day or so to let the ultimate effects of the happenings this week when on Wednesday I was ready to pack my boxes and all the shit I have that is mine in the office due in part to ... inadequate working conditions. This is so not funny, however, I was working in a basement @ the hospital and freezing my ass off for 8+ hours a day for a year and no one gave a shit if I was cold. More than 1 co-worker began complaining ... or as it became by Tuesday...constant bitching. I sit right behind the front desk, in an enclosed office with another. I had not only the door closed, but my headphones into my iPod and I could still her bitchin' through the glass. This turned into 4+ hours of people convening outside our office door. PEOPLE!!!! Ok .. you get the picture. On Wednesday morning I came in to an email stating was going to be paid for only a certain amount of hours because I apparently ran out of EIT time with no notification. This was an issue that I had thought of, and it wasn't like the "uppers" didn't know the situation, i.e., not only my close coworkers, but my supervisor, and the illustrious "OZ" (this is my latest visual, you know, Oz, blowing smoke up your ass from behind the curtain??). I put in for my time as recommended by the surgeon, I had the note x2 due to the infection and then being out another week, and now restricted until 11/17 (yes, that is a week away!) This email states at 7:55 PM the night before, that my check will be short this week. "Just wanted you to have a heads up." "A HEADS UP!!!" Sorry folks, but less than 12 hours prior to payday IS NOT a heads up, it is more like a think quick!!! When I responded to the almighty Oz, I had an attitude, I was pissed to put it mildly. EVERY single time I have had to deal with Oz for the past year-to-14 months she pulls some two-faced move on myself and a couple of others I know of personally. I apparently know more than I care too. In any event, with the already late 1st of the month bills, I only took home less than half of what a normal pay period looks like, putting me not only behind at work, but 2 months behind in reality at home as well. What made me go off was not only my continuing recovery (although physically better this week), but all the petty complaining of the same scenarios, same characters, MAJOR lack of, if any, communication, and ... NO change ... it's like watching Ground Hogs Day ... 100 times in a row. Sorry, but I don't think too many people would find it remained as amusing after so many repeats. Redundant, and sucking the morale out of those left that have been continually cleaning up the messes. When the problems are staring you right in the face, and you have facts to back them up, consequences should be paid. I know, hands down, I irritate some people, however, I also know, that if people ENJOY coming to work, they do a good job, excel, etc. I have given more than a 100% of my healthy time to this place, know that as a support member of the docs/NP/techs/counselors, you get it .... you have all heard the term, "shit rolls downhill"? .... and then the clincher .... and all I know was this email came in just as I was leaving on Wednesday from what I would refer to as a "rent-a-doc". This 30-something ,high maintained little 'dahktah' ... LMAO ... had the class of a highly-educated professional, to in one line, take me down like I hadn't been taken down since I was married!!! You have heard me write before, I don't care what sort of initials you have after your name, there is no need to talk down to people. I try not to do this, and I try to do this by keeping things comfortable. I am not a "Stepford" worker, or human being either. I have a life, lame as it may be for some, I don't need this mentality from a person I am too show up for work for to SUPPORT and she is calling me "arrogant."
What can I say??.. she pushed my last dying button. I shot off a snotty little one liner myself to the people she felt are going take care of me. She wants no more communication with the "arrogant transcriptionist!" BITE ME BIMBALINA, I'm the coder!!! I was seething at this point. I haven't been the pissed/which in reality was a deep, deep hurt. For the 1st time in many years, yes, even with disagreements in relationships, have I been spoken to in such a tone ... and a doctor to boot. I admire your education, you may know a whole lot more than I, however, your words were harsh for someone you only met for 30 seconds and feel you are "entitled," ROFLMAO ..... yep, I am laughing now. I live by, and have raised my daughter, that respect is a 2-way street. This provider started with a clean slate, she messed up, she messed up again, and again, each time becoming more demanding, i.e., this is how I do it, it's approved by Harvard, BFD!!! .... (Hello, she has no idea Harvard is my neck of the woods ... hehehe..... for all I know Hillary's baby stroller is still hanging off the little walking bridge there in Harvard square. :D
Let me tell you all a little secret, and I think some out there may even affirm this statement .... I may have been born and raised in a small mill town, and my parents my have been considered "blue-collar" workers, my parents, more my mother, made sure that we understood respect and manners. No, I don't always have manners when I state things so crudely at times, call it my rough edge. Everyone who knows me will tell you I try to appear as though I have a very hard, tough outer shell. Well, I am born under the sign of the Crab, and my mother often told me that it was totally appropriate for me. :) I do like to believe that people are good, but this was just one more example of poor management, unethical and down-right mean demands on those who are you main back bone under the providers. I am tired of being treated like a doormat, again, not having felt like this since the early 90's. I swore that I would never become a victim of that again, I don't care if you are male OR female.
Let's wrap this up, I need to get off the box ... hehehe....I am off today, praise the Gods!! With the exception of 2 side job projects which need to be completed and sent off. Then I am going to do some cleaning as we (a friend came over to help Hilly) moved some furniture around last night, I had to supervise as Nurse Ratchet was in the house. :) She is still looking out for me despite me telling her it's all lookin' good. She doesn't want me to push it, understood, however, I need to keep me as busy as possible and get all this stuff accomplished in time, 4 weeks from yesterday ... lol... she is totally stoked. Apparently my friends, who also work with me, have decided I am depressed, and yet another one on the band wagon of "your life sucks!" .... all in good humor of course, but I think they are right. I can't even keep track anymore lately ... time for some more stemmies.
Ok kids, I need to go "prick" as I am feeling 'fuzzy' and I get the impression that perhaps I wandered a bit in my thoughts and expression the last couple of paragraphs. I do know I used NO real names, and no places .... LMAO ....
Forgive me ... it's how I felt.
Wishing everyone a great weekend.
Thank a Veteran and/or an active military member for the right to speak like this out in Cosmo.
Peace and Light ... and respect!!!
et
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
WOW
Hey Folks,
I have had quite a week and it's only Tuesday!!
Work was unbelievable when I returned to the office last week. I was completely caught up when I left for my surgery and as usual, someone else feels that what their job may be doesn't affect anyone else. GGGRRR ..... needless to say, I am now behind almost two months!!! I was not the happiest of campers upon return to find all that, and on top of that, withing 15 minutes after arriving was thrown into a 3 hour meeting that I was unprepared for. The usual ........ seems like all we ever hear is lip service. I am trying to just take it as it comes. I can only do so much in a 6 hour day, being on restriction until the 17th when I see the surgeon again. (it does appear and certainly feels a LOT better). Like that wasn't enough "job duties" were added to my already overloaded day. I do a lot of shaking of my head lately.
On another note, my baby girl is about to graduate on 12/10 with her nursing degree. I am so incredibly proud of her for the commitments she has taken, the sacrifices she has made, the losses she has suffered since graduating high school and working so hard for the past 3 1/2 years... she has finally made her goal a reality. At least the main part of her goal ... hehehe .... she plans on continuing her education but wants to take a year or two to get her hands dirty. I have no doubts she has what it takes to be a real driving force in the field of medicine. I am just hoping she stops a little now and then to enjoy life. She so deserves a few positive happenings for all she has put forth into the world, the community, ME .... and all the help she was caring for my parents with me. She is going to be one kick-ass nurse!!!
Ok kids, well ... it's past my bedtime, I just got my laptop back up and running after Maggie put me out of commission for a week feeling the need to lie across my lap and slamming her big head down, and not so gracefully, onto my keyboard. Not sure what she hit, but I had to reconfigure all my network settings, etc for my laptop. Someone apparently forget to tell her that she is NOT a lap dog!! (She sits right here to my left, and she seems to always have to have contact.) She is 70 pounds of pure lovin' .... but doesn't have to be on my lap. :D I'm the master, and she stays close, sometimes trouble-causing close.
On that note ... lol......(thinking I should come up with some other phrases), I am taking my dog and going to bed. I need to get my rest as I am still sort of wiped out when I get home and the child thinks I am doing too much too soon, I disagree, I just need to take care of me, and I have always pushed myself. As I age, I do know I can't go nonstop anymore, pacing myself is still an issue ... I want it done ... NOW. :P
Sweet dreams my friends!!
Take care of YOU!!
Peace and Light
et
I have had quite a week and it's only Tuesday!!
Work was unbelievable when I returned to the office last week. I was completely caught up when I left for my surgery and as usual, someone else feels that what their job may be doesn't affect anyone else. GGGRRR ..... needless to say, I am now behind almost two months!!! I was not the happiest of campers upon return to find all that, and on top of that, withing 15 minutes after arriving was thrown into a 3 hour meeting that I was unprepared for. The usual ........ seems like all we ever hear is lip service. I am trying to just take it as it comes. I can only do so much in a 6 hour day, being on restriction until the 17th when I see the surgeon again. (it does appear and certainly feels a LOT better). Like that wasn't enough "job duties" were added to my already overloaded day. I do a lot of shaking of my head lately.
On another note, my baby girl is about to graduate on 12/10 with her nursing degree. I am so incredibly proud of her for the commitments she has taken, the sacrifices she has made, the losses she has suffered since graduating high school and working so hard for the past 3 1/2 years... she has finally made her goal a reality. At least the main part of her goal ... hehehe .... she plans on continuing her education but wants to take a year or two to get her hands dirty. I have no doubts she has what it takes to be a real driving force in the field of medicine. I am just hoping she stops a little now and then to enjoy life. She so deserves a few positive happenings for all she has put forth into the world, the community, ME .... and all the help she was caring for my parents with me. She is going to be one kick-ass nurse!!!
Ok kids, well ... it's past my bedtime, I just got my laptop back up and running after Maggie put me out of commission for a week feeling the need to lie across my lap and slamming her big head down, and not so gracefully, onto my keyboard. Not sure what she hit, but I had to reconfigure all my network settings, etc for my laptop. Someone apparently forget to tell her that she is NOT a lap dog!! (She sits right here to my left, and she seems to always have to have contact.) She is 70 pounds of pure lovin' .... but doesn't have to be on my lap. :D I'm the master, and she stays close, sometimes trouble-causing close.
On that note ... lol......(thinking I should come up with some other phrases), I am taking my dog and going to bed. I need to get my rest as I am still sort of wiped out when I get home and the child thinks I am doing too much too soon, I disagree, I just need to take care of me, and I have always pushed myself. As I age, I do know I can't go nonstop anymore, pacing myself is still an issue ... I want it done ... NOW. :P
Sweet dreams my friends!!
Take care of YOU!!
Peace and Light
et
Saturday, November 5, 2011
It's never ending
Hello WebWorld!!
Well, the human body continues to amaze me. However .... I could and would be more than happy to be amazed using someone else's body as the vessel of amazement!!! This past Tuesday morning, after being told by surgeons office last Thursday, to "massage it" for the weekend and see what happens. "Swelling is normal." Not like this pal... there is NOTHING normal about the swelling I was trying to cope with ... and OMG .. the pain was something I don't think I have ever experienced. The sensations were hard to describe. In any event, I had that date with the BFN (Big F'in Needle) on Tuesday morning, and despite my anxiety about the BFN with no local, I did just fine and the relief was almost immediate when he drained the excessive amount of fluid and proceeded to tell me that I was "infected." Since that appointment I have returned to work hours a day for two weeks. Sitting and/or standing for more than a couple to three hours at a time is just too much. There is still swelling, bruising is clearing up, and the ache seems to be subsiding slightly. Hopefully, after the antibiotic run, things will be looking up.
With all this going on, and my limited ability to push, pull, or lift anything more than 5 pounds, it has made wiping out the remaining mess from my parent's belongings, thus holding me in limbo as to weather I want to have our open house/grad party here at the house, or get a hall and haul stuff all over the county. All this is coming up quickly. Thanksgiving, graduation, I have a weekend to Vegas on the books. and then Christmas ... I guess ... that given there will be no one here this year except for Hillary and I, the holidays will have to become something of a new tradition as what my mother was able to accomplish in this respect isn't something I think I could replicate. So it will be a holiday season of no doubt, reflection, sadness, memories of holidays gone by, and a method of moving forward, to take these memories and put them to the best possible use for us. I have discovered, that it is not all about family, but that of the friends and loved ones who make us feel loved throughout the year, that we rejoice in our love for each other and continue to grow in our relationships. I am still a big fan of those sorts of romanticized relationships, if you will, closeness that is felt between people, for whatever reason.
With the kickoff to the holiday season, let's remember not to forget ourselves. Take care of us, heart and soul, mind and body .... there is nothing worth risking our health or well-being for, and money can't buy us that.
For now, wishing the world a wonderful weekend!!
Peace and Light
et
Well, the human body continues to amaze me. However .... I could and would be more than happy to be amazed using someone else's body as the vessel of amazement!!! This past Tuesday morning, after being told by surgeons office last Thursday, to "massage it" for the weekend and see what happens. "Swelling is normal." Not like this pal... there is NOTHING normal about the swelling I was trying to cope with ... and OMG .. the pain was something I don't think I have ever experienced. The sensations were hard to describe. In any event, I had that date with the BFN (Big F'in Needle) on Tuesday morning, and despite my anxiety about the BFN with no local, I did just fine and the relief was almost immediate when he drained the excessive amount of fluid and proceeded to tell me that I was "infected." Since that appointment I have returned to work hours a day for two weeks. Sitting and/or standing for more than a couple to three hours at a time is just too much. There is still swelling, bruising is clearing up, and the ache seems to be subsiding slightly. Hopefully, after the antibiotic run, things will be looking up.
With all this going on, and my limited ability to push, pull, or lift anything more than 5 pounds, it has made wiping out the remaining mess from my parent's belongings, thus holding me in limbo as to weather I want to have our open house/grad party here at the house, or get a hall and haul stuff all over the county. All this is coming up quickly. Thanksgiving, graduation, I have a weekend to Vegas on the books. and then Christmas ... I guess ... that given there will be no one here this year except for Hillary and I, the holidays will have to become something of a new tradition as what my mother was able to accomplish in this respect isn't something I think I could replicate. So it will be a holiday season of no doubt, reflection, sadness, memories of holidays gone by, and a method of moving forward, to take these memories and put them to the best possible use for us. I have discovered, that it is not all about family, but that of the friends and loved ones who make us feel loved throughout the year, that we rejoice in our love for each other and continue to grow in our relationships. I am still a big fan of those sorts of romanticized relationships, if you will, closeness that is felt between people, for whatever reason.
With the kickoff to the holiday season, let's remember not to forget ourselves. Take care of us, heart and soul, mind and body .... there is nothing worth risking our health or well-being for, and money can't buy us that.
For now, wishing the world a wonderful weekend!!
Peace and Light
et
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Book of the month club ... ???
G'evening!!
I'm not feeling so great with this lymph node missing and being told to "massage it" .... which I have been, but it hurts like hell!!! Pain meds don't seem to be touching this, so I stopped taking them and reverted back to some homeopathic methods that I know work (for me anyway). Today I put a Castor oil wrap in the area and applied some heat, and then did the massage thing. Only problem I am finding out is that if I am up walking around, or sitting, for too long (like 2 1/2 hours is what I made today) the pain and swelling become excruciatingly painful. I did a little research last night and will massage with some essential oils to help break up the toxin build up of lymph fluid to help it disperse within my body. (It beats the BFN!!) It is just draining when there are so many other things I could be doing that would be considered productive. Flat on my back with my leg elevated to massage a large "package," as my loving daughter has now nicknamed it, is not my idea of fun. I have one more day to get this down or I have to call the surgeon again on Monday, the day I am suppose to go back to work.
Oh well .... onto some stuff I have stumbled upon. I am not usually a promoter of things I haven't tried, but the following link was within a news article I read today on MSN ... it may not be directly associated with adult stem cell research, treatment, etc., but it is on the same lines in my opinion. Our US Government has held back the scientists of America and until we make our voice one and take back what is ours, we will see no advancement for our once mightier than thou country that not only we, but our forefathers, ancestors, and others have brought with them to make us that super power. We have lost our edge in the area of science. SO ... I am going to pick up this book this week ..... if anyone else should read it, I would love to get a dialogue going. I know I am not the only person who feels the way I do. Too many of our elderly, chronically ill, mentally ill, etc. are being sucked dry when the science to make a real difference is within our reach. I don't get it.....?????? But I figure I will check it out.
http://shawnotto.com/foolmetwice/
Wishing everyone a wonderful evening and a relaxing Sunday (my heat bag is ready to roll again :)
Peace and Light
et
I'm not feeling so great with this lymph node missing and being told to "massage it" .... which I have been, but it hurts like hell!!! Pain meds don't seem to be touching this, so I stopped taking them and reverted back to some homeopathic methods that I know work (for me anyway). Today I put a Castor oil wrap in the area and applied some heat, and then did the massage thing. Only problem I am finding out is that if I am up walking around, or sitting, for too long (like 2 1/2 hours is what I made today) the pain and swelling become excruciatingly painful. I did a little research last night and will massage with some essential oils to help break up the toxin build up of lymph fluid to help it disperse within my body. (It beats the BFN!!) It is just draining when there are so many other things I could be doing that would be considered productive. Flat on my back with my leg elevated to massage a large "package," as my loving daughter has now nicknamed it, is not my idea of fun. I have one more day to get this down or I have to call the surgeon again on Monday, the day I am suppose to go back to work.
Oh well .... onto some stuff I have stumbled upon. I am not usually a promoter of things I haven't tried, but the following link was within a news article I read today on MSN ... it may not be directly associated with adult stem cell research, treatment, etc., but it is on the same lines in my opinion. Our US Government has held back the scientists of America and until we make our voice one and take back what is ours, we will see no advancement for our once mightier than thou country that not only we, but our forefathers, ancestors, and others have brought with them to make us that super power. We have lost our edge in the area of science. SO ... I am going to pick up this book this week ..... if anyone else should read it, I would love to get a dialogue going. I know I am not the only person who feels the way I do. Too many of our elderly, chronically ill, mentally ill, etc. are being sucked dry when the science to make a real difference is within our reach. I don't get it.....?????? But I figure I will check it out.
http://shawnotto.com/foolmetwice/
Wishing everyone a wonderful evening and a relaxing Sunday (my heat bag is ready to roll again :)
Peace and Light
et
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Hump Day
Morning Folks!!!
I just found this article in my email. A follow-up so-to-speak on the young man who made headlines back in July with the stem cell treatment he had for tracheal cancer. Cool stuff .. and this just makes good sense in my opinion. Let's use what we already have to help those afflicted with these diseases rather than kill us off slowly with high priced drugs, and antirejection drugs will kill us in the end anyway. I guess this is the question I have been asking myself every time I have to undergo a procedure, prescribed a new drug, etc. I try and weigh the pros and cons. How many commercials have we seen on the TV where the statement "serious and sometime fatal effects have been noted." Really, (this next statement is humorous in my opinion), i.e., a gentleman has erectile problems (we see it multiple times a day on media), now, if I were a man, I am not sure I would risk "death" for a hard on!! I know of a couple of men who have taken things like Viagra who have heart issues and suffered a stroke, but lets prescribe a pill so he can get it on at the risk of (yes, this happened) he falls and passes out in the shower afterward. Sorry kids, I see no real sense in this either. There are other ways to alter the physical love part without a pill.
That is my rant for this morning .... lol .... enjoy the read.
http://www.themarknews.com/articles/7180-stem-cell-innovation-saves-lives
Have a wonderful day!!
Peace and Light
et
I just found this article in my email. A follow-up so-to-speak on the young man who made headlines back in July with the stem cell treatment he had for tracheal cancer. Cool stuff .. and this just makes good sense in my opinion. Let's use what we already have to help those afflicted with these diseases rather than kill us off slowly with high priced drugs, and antirejection drugs will kill us in the end anyway. I guess this is the question I have been asking myself every time I have to undergo a procedure, prescribed a new drug, etc. I try and weigh the pros and cons. How many commercials have we seen on the TV where the statement "serious and sometime fatal effects have been noted." Really, (this next statement is humorous in my opinion), i.e., a gentleman has erectile problems (we see it multiple times a day on media), now, if I were a man, I am not sure I would risk "death" for a hard on!! I know of a couple of men who have taken things like Viagra who have heart issues and suffered a stroke, but lets prescribe a pill so he can get it on at the risk of (yes, this happened) he falls and passes out in the shower afterward. Sorry kids, I see no real sense in this either. There are other ways to alter the physical love part without a pill.
That is my rant for this morning .... lol .... enjoy the read.
http://www.themarknews.com/articles/7180-stem-cell-innovation-saves-lives
Have a wonderful day!!
Peace and Light
et
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
More information on Stem Cell status
This site has some pretty good information as to where the stem cell status sits, and covers multiple areas of application.
http://www.ascrnetwork.com/
They are associated with the Cell Therapy Foundation (a link I posted the other day).
Enjoy .... and let's get the word out there, we WANT this!!
Good Evening and a Happy Hump day for tomorrow.
Peace and Light
et
http://www.ascrnetwork.com/
They are associated with the Cell Therapy Foundation (a link I posted the other day).
Enjoy .... and let's get the word out there, we WANT this!!
Good Evening and a Happy Hump day for tomorrow.
Peace and Light
et
WONDERFUL OUTCOME !!
Good Day to All!!
I have some very relieving news just in this morning. On my post surgical follow up appointment, which was bumped up from Monday due to a good sized accumulation of lymph fluid, I was told that the pathology reports did not indicate ANY CANCER!!!! It was like a huge boulder had been lifted off my shoulders, and with any luck, my gut will calm down over the next couple of days. I can't help but believe that the power of prayer, and good vibes in which are sent to me from around the world also plays a major role.
Thank you all for your positive vibes, it is a gift in which I have no real words to describe my gratitude.
Wishing everyone a wonderful day!!!!
Peace and Light
et
I have some very relieving news just in this morning. On my post surgical follow up appointment, which was bumped up from Monday due to a good sized accumulation of lymph fluid, I was told that the pathology reports did not indicate ANY CANCER!!!! It was like a huge boulder had been lifted off my shoulders, and with any luck, my gut will calm down over the next couple of days. I can't help but believe that the power of prayer, and good vibes in which are sent to me from around the world also plays a major role.
Thank you all for your positive vibes, it is a gift in which I have no real words to describe my gratitude.
Wishing everyone a wonderful day!!!!
Peace and Light
et
Monday, October 24, 2011
Is this normal ... ??
Afternoon All,
I have been done most of the day. I didn't sleep well at all last evening, and have been in bed most of the day. My blood sugars have been exceptionally high the past 3-4 days and I spent the morning trying to make calls and figure out why? I have changed my site twice in the past 3 days, usually changing out every 3 days, problem continues. I have had very little to eat since surgery, a lot of water trying to flush out this high streak. I called the pump people this morning, told them of what was going on and the fact that my pump has been cracked and not holding a real charge. I will have a replacement in the morning. In the meantime, I have had to continue with additional injections on top of what my pump should be infusing. I really am at a loss. I also had to talk with the surgeon's office this morning due to a VERY large lump in the area of my incision. I am told that it could be fluid in which will and/or may have to be drained in the morning when I have my appointment and get pathology results. Can you say nauseated??
Ok ... that is it for now, I don't feel well, am going to feed the dog and lay back down.
Peace, Light and a relaxing evening to all.
et
I have been done most of the day. I didn't sleep well at all last evening, and have been in bed most of the day. My blood sugars have been exceptionally high the past 3-4 days and I spent the morning trying to make calls and figure out why? I have changed my site twice in the past 3 days, usually changing out every 3 days, problem continues. I have had very little to eat since surgery, a lot of water trying to flush out this high streak. I called the pump people this morning, told them of what was going on and the fact that my pump has been cracked and not holding a real charge. I will have a replacement in the morning. In the meantime, I have had to continue with additional injections on top of what my pump should be infusing. I really am at a loss. I also had to talk with the surgeon's office this morning due to a VERY large lump in the area of my incision. I am told that it could be fluid in which will and/or may have to be drained in the morning when I have my appointment and get pathology results. Can you say nauseated??
Ok ... that is it for now, I don't feel well, am going to feed the dog and lay back down.
Peace, Light and a relaxing evening to all.
et
Sunday, October 23, 2011
My life is changing ...
.... in some wonderful ways!!!
This entire time period over the last 2 1/2 to 5 years has presented itself with some very life changing happenings. I have lost both my parents, the only relatives I had living out here in AZ, an aunt and uncle, within 6 months of each other; another uncle, a couple of friends, a favorite brother-in-law, and my ex-husband. Each one of these losses came in a way that seemed like it was one right after another without a lot of time in between to get over the loss, to grieve, it was ..... look ... look hard, remember, and cherish all those moments. Good, bad, happy, sad, light-hearted, and deep, like death and dying. I have had some wonderful experiences within these heart breaking happenings. My mother's death will be one of the most poignant experience I may ever have. (I have been working on this chapter for my book). I can't help but believe, she is still with me, and she is cheering her ass off currently, even as life continues to throw it's stop-sticks in my way, i.e., the latest surgery and its still waited on outcome. However, where my health has taken me in just the past 2 years since losing her physically, my life has had some pretty amazing shit happen!!! ..... LOL .... sorry, there really is no other way to phrase it. I believe, I feel, that my life is about to change for the better, in a way that I have no idea how I will deal with it. I am sorry to say, that this experience with the travel expenses, the newspaper articles, the knowledge that I have shared with what some say is a huge deal, I still feel very small. I have been described recently as just someone who can't lie about what has transpired within me since my stem cell treatment, and the people that have become friends and advocates just knowing I "tell it like it is." I have never considered myself a "science geek", but I have always been totally awed by the biology/physiological aspect in regard to the human body. It amazes me some of the happenings the human body can bounce back from. Now ... add the passions of those people put to huge, global difference....??? That is a lot to think about. I read, and I read, and I scan, medical sites, research sites, bio-technical sites, social media sites, news and journals of medicine. There is some pretty amazing research going on in this country, and if you would all be kind enough to check out the attached link and listen to a couple of the little videos in which Dick Van Dyke has volunteered his time ( makes me wonder if perhaps adult stem cell treatment was not a part of his recent spine surgery???).
I want to be part of this science break through, I want to prove if to no one but myself, that I can make a difference, I will make a difference .... and the Angels will cheer!!!! A couple of those folks are with me in my heart, always will be ... because they "got it", they got me, they knew what made me tick, they knew what I dealt with on a day to day, minute to minute basis ... and yet they still loved me and lived life with me and for that I am forever grateful for the lessons in which I learned while they were here, and since their passing. Powerful stuff people, and it humbles me.
http://www.celltherapyfoundation.org/
Enjoy the information on the web page attached .... the science is here, and we need to make it part of our health care now .... not when "they" decide .... for the better good of ALL people.
Have a wonderful week!!!
Peace and Light
et
This entire time period over the last 2 1/2 to 5 years has presented itself with some very life changing happenings. I have lost both my parents, the only relatives I had living out here in AZ, an aunt and uncle, within 6 months of each other; another uncle, a couple of friends, a favorite brother-in-law, and my ex-husband. Each one of these losses came in a way that seemed like it was one right after another without a lot of time in between to get over the loss, to grieve, it was ..... look ... look hard, remember, and cherish all those moments. Good, bad, happy, sad, light-hearted, and deep, like death and dying. I have had some wonderful experiences within these heart breaking happenings. My mother's death will be one of the most poignant experience I may ever have. (I have been working on this chapter for my book). I can't help but believe, she is still with me, and she is cheering her ass off currently, even as life continues to throw it's stop-sticks in my way, i.e., the latest surgery and its still waited on outcome. However, where my health has taken me in just the past 2 years since losing her physically, my life has had some pretty amazing shit happen!!! ..... LOL .... sorry, there really is no other way to phrase it. I believe, I feel, that my life is about to change for the better, in a way that I have no idea how I will deal with it. I am sorry to say, that this experience with the travel expenses, the newspaper articles, the knowledge that I have shared with what some say is a huge deal, I still feel very small. I have been described recently as just someone who can't lie about what has transpired within me since my stem cell treatment, and the people that have become friends and advocates just knowing I "tell it like it is." I have never considered myself a "science geek", but I have always been totally awed by the biology/physiological aspect in regard to the human body. It amazes me some of the happenings the human body can bounce back from. Now ... add the passions of those people put to huge, global difference....??? That is a lot to think about. I read, and I read, and I scan, medical sites, research sites, bio-technical sites, social media sites, news and journals of medicine. There is some pretty amazing research going on in this country, and if you would all be kind enough to check out the attached link and listen to a couple of the little videos in which Dick Van Dyke has volunteered his time ( makes me wonder if perhaps adult stem cell treatment was not a part of his recent spine surgery???).
I want to be part of this science break through, I want to prove if to no one but myself, that I can make a difference, I will make a difference .... and the Angels will cheer!!!! A couple of those folks are with me in my heart, always will be ... because they "got it", they got me, they knew what made me tick, they knew what I dealt with on a day to day, minute to minute basis ... and yet they still loved me and lived life with me and for that I am forever grateful for the lessons in which I learned while they were here, and since their passing. Powerful stuff people, and it humbles me.
http://www.celltherapyfoundation.org/
Enjoy the information on the web page attached .... the science is here, and we need to make it part of our health care now .... not when "they" decide .... for the better good of ALL people.
Have a wonderful week!!!
Peace and Light
et
Friday, October 21, 2011
Rest, Rest ... Rest is boring
Good Evening to All!!
As I sit here, eyes half closed, I am thinking how boring this past week has been. I have done pretty much nothing but rest, I find this a depressing, boring act. I felt great Monday afternoon and Tuesday. I was up walking around most of the afternoon on Monday (day of surgery). Since I took the compression bandage off, I just feel weird, tired, and my hips are sore. I have few bruises. Odd, but it was one of my better surgical episodes, and was all good on Monday. The karma was all around flowing positively. I moved up my follow up appointment from November 1, to this upcoming Tuesday. If I am cleared I will go back to work on Wednesday rather than a week from. I am bored, and at least if I "have" to go somewhere, I will get out of the house. After talking with the nurse yesterday she said pathology reports had not yet been received, but she "will try and have them for the appointment, but he won't let you go back to work until he sees how you are doing." Okay ... I can live with that. I know how to play the game, just let me go and do something ..... I can't do yard work and moving stuff around hasn't been in the cards either. So I will, again, be turning in early with my book and my freshly bathed dog!! Yes, Hillary and I took Maggie into town for some beauty treatment this morning and spent a couple of hours walking around the mall. I kept telling her to slow down as I felt like she was running (she wasn't, I just couldn't keep the pace as my hip area was sore).
With all that being said, things are tight. I don't like the smothering feeling of things being so tight. I am trying hard to just keep an even pace and just let the wave ride. What else can I do? I can only do so much, that which is within my own power, other than that, it's up to the "Big Guy" and, I don't know, the stars? fate? destiny? Take your pick ....
All this news that is on the television is depressing. Missing and abused children, misguided so-called adults, dictators who are dead, and now the UN wants an investigation....Really?? Does anyone really care "how" he died? At the hands of his own people, who HE has been killing for 40+ years. Sorry folks, unfortunately, I see this as the cost of war. Karma can be a bitch, but this would seem to be one of those clear cases of "what goes around, comes around." Personally, I think he got off easy for the destruction and delusional behaviors he exhibited. I wish the people well in a new world, many never having known anything other than that iron fist mentality.
As I lay my head down this evening, I pray for peace, health, and contentment for all in the world. I am a person who enjoys learning about other cultures, religions, customs and beliefs, I wish many more had that same outlook as there is so much to learn, see, enjoy and cultivate. Life is an interesting ride, shouldn't we try and find a way to play nice together, if for no other reason than being kind to our fellow man??
So many lessons to learn, so little time to learn them in.
Wishing everyone a peaceful evening and a joyous, safe weekend!!
Peace and Light
et
As I sit here, eyes half closed, I am thinking how boring this past week has been. I have done pretty much nothing but rest, I find this a depressing, boring act. I felt great Monday afternoon and Tuesday. I was up walking around most of the afternoon on Monday (day of surgery). Since I took the compression bandage off, I just feel weird, tired, and my hips are sore. I have few bruises. Odd, but it was one of my better surgical episodes, and was all good on Monday. The karma was all around flowing positively. I moved up my follow up appointment from November 1, to this upcoming Tuesday. If I am cleared I will go back to work on Wednesday rather than a week from. I am bored, and at least if I "have" to go somewhere, I will get out of the house. After talking with the nurse yesterday she said pathology reports had not yet been received, but she "will try and have them for the appointment, but he won't let you go back to work until he sees how you are doing." Okay ... I can live with that. I know how to play the game, just let me go and do something ..... I can't do yard work and moving stuff around hasn't been in the cards either. So I will, again, be turning in early with my book and my freshly bathed dog!! Yes, Hillary and I took Maggie into town for some beauty treatment this morning and spent a couple of hours walking around the mall. I kept telling her to slow down as I felt like she was running (she wasn't, I just couldn't keep the pace as my hip area was sore).
With all that being said, things are tight. I don't like the smothering feeling of things being so tight. I am trying hard to just keep an even pace and just let the wave ride. What else can I do? I can only do so much, that which is within my own power, other than that, it's up to the "Big Guy" and, I don't know, the stars? fate? destiny? Take your pick ....
All this news that is on the television is depressing. Missing and abused children, misguided so-called adults, dictators who are dead, and now the UN wants an investigation....Really?? Does anyone really care "how" he died? At the hands of his own people, who HE has been killing for 40+ years. Sorry folks, unfortunately, I see this as the cost of war. Karma can be a bitch, but this would seem to be one of those clear cases of "what goes around, comes around." Personally, I think he got off easy for the destruction and delusional behaviors he exhibited. I wish the people well in a new world, many never having known anything other than that iron fist mentality.
As I lay my head down this evening, I pray for peace, health, and contentment for all in the world. I am a person who enjoys learning about other cultures, religions, customs and beliefs, I wish many more had that same outlook as there is so much to learn, see, enjoy and cultivate. Life is an interesting ride, shouldn't we try and find a way to play nice together, if for no other reason than being kind to our fellow man??
So many lessons to learn, so little time to learn them in.
Wishing everyone a peaceful evening and a joyous, safe weekend!!
Peace and Light
et
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
A couple of really good reads ...
While I am napping .... hahaaha ....
I took the compression bandage of a bit ago, took me 20 minutes in the shower due to, in large part, a REALLY bad "haircut!" LOL .... I should teach a class is surgical shave techniques. I think I would call this a "Brazilian-Mohawk" .... (yes, I am laughing loudly)
Anyway ... am a little lightheaded now so I am going in to take a nap and elevate my freshly exposed incision, which looks fabulous. Given the size approximately 3 1/2 inches, it is clean and looks great for 48 hours post-op. My stemmies have had to work overtime in the healing department, however, I feel I still have some going strong.
Check out the two links below. Both incredible reads and the DRI is making progress, but you will see that this man is fighting a loosing battle without our help being held up with the politics of it all. The Wake Forest article is just a touch of what is going on down there and the amazing progress that is being made in the "cures" not just the treatment of symptoms..... and without the side effects, because, again, THEY BELONG TO US!!!
http://www.laduenews.com/articles/2011/10/15/living/wellness/doc4e854cae16d34136207186.prt
http://www.wakehealth.edu/Research/WFIRM/Our-Story/Our-Story.htm
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Peace and Light
et
I took the compression bandage of a bit ago, took me 20 minutes in the shower due to, in large part, a REALLY bad "haircut!" LOL .... I should teach a class is surgical shave techniques. I think I would call this a "Brazilian-Mohawk" .... (yes, I am laughing loudly)
Anyway ... am a little lightheaded now so I am going in to take a nap and elevate my freshly exposed incision, which looks fabulous. Given the size approximately 3 1/2 inches, it is clean and looks great for 48 hours post-op. My stemmies have had to work overtime in the healing department, however, I feel I still have some going strong.
Check out the two links below. Both incredible reads and the DRI is making progress, but you will see that this man is fighting a loosing battle without our help being held up with the politics of it all. The Wake Forest article is just a touch of what is going on down there and the amazing progress that is being made in the "cures" not just the treatment of symptoms..... and without the side effects, because, again, THEY BELONG TO US!!!
http://www.laduenews.com/articles/2011/10/15/living/wellness/doc4e854cae16d34136207186.prt
http://www.wakehealth.edu/Research/WFIRM/Our-Story/Our-Story.htm
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Peace and Light
et
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Surgery went well
Hello All!!
Surgery went exceptionally well. We wait now for pathology results.
I am off to nap and I will update in more detail when I feel a little more alert.
Thanks for the prayers, good wishes, love and friendship!!
Peace and Light
et
PS: A special message to my reader Janet .... I wish you the ULTIMATE best in your outcome!! I will be thinking of you come Weds. morning .... until then rest and relax, you are in good hands. et
Surgery went exceptionally well. We wait now for pathology results.
I am off to nap and I will update in more detail when I feel a little more alert.
Thanks for the prayers, good wishes, love and friendship!!
Peace and Light
et
PS: A special message to my reader Janet .... I wish you the ULTIMATE best in your outcome!! I will be thinking of you come Weds. morning .... until then rest and relax, you are in good hands. et
Saturday, October 15, 2011
A personal request from a reader
Good Afternoon .... wow .... 3 posts in one day!!!
Per a personal request from one of my new readers, I am going to post my email address for anyone who may want to ask questions in a more private mode as opposed to posting on the WWW.
I will do my best to answer any questions put to me at elizatyler5@gmail.com
Thanks again to ALL who read, comment, and I am always open to questions and comments. Stemmies are MY future ... will you be part of the journey? I hope when people see and hear, from real, everyday people the amazing results being seen with this sort of treatment, that there are too many citizens from the everyday walk of life, would rather have this available than medication in which the potential side effects are 5x what the original problem may be ... we have made the pharmaceutical companies billions of dollars, how about we ask for our lives back WITHOUT the side effects and poorly overseen pharmaceuticals to just manage symptoms.
Something to think about.
In good health!!!
Peace and Light
et
Per a personal request from one of my new readers, I am going to post my email address for anyone who may want to ask questions in a more private mode as opposed to posting on the WWW.
I will do my best to answer any questions put to me at elizatyler5@gmail.com
Thanks again to ALL who read, comment, and I am always open to questions and comments. Stemmies are MY future ... will you be part of the journey? I hope when people see and hear, from real, everyday people the amazing results being seen with this sort of treatment, that there are too many citizens from the everyday walk of life, would rather have this available than medication in which the potential side effects are 5x what the original problem may be ... we have made the pharmaceutical companies billions of dollars, how about we ask for our lives back WITHOUT the side effects and poorly overseen pharmaceuticals to just manage symptoms.
Something to think about.
In good health!!!
Peace and Light
et
Saturday Morning Chuckle ...
I think this is going to be my new mantra .... hahahahaha .... this is too true for reality.
Enjoy!!!
I think this is just too right-on!!! There isn't anything wrong with me .... LOL ....
Peace and Light
et
Enjoy!!!
I think this is just too right-on!!! There isn't anything wrong with me .... LOL ....
Peace and Light
et
Friday, October 14, 2011
One Hurdle Down ...
Good Evening Everyone!!
... and a happy Friday!!! I didn't think this week was EVER going to end. Too much hitting this house to deal with all at once. But .... in my usual "can't keep a good...down" mantra .... hahaha...I have tried to remain positive, that although I am still at a loss as to what I am dealing with, it is basically out of my hands at this point. I got my biopsies back that were done by the GYN ... we dodged a bullet on this one as it is only "mild" this time around. Meaning that we are only at the cellular changes and stress is a known contributor ..... so I continue to breathe deep with my shoulders back. I can deal with this, and we have a couple of options in which to make it good again. I will be re-checked in 3 months.
On to Monday .... I must arrive at the hospital at 7:30 with surgery scheduled for 9:45 lasting ... approximately 60-90 minutes .... ok ... not anything I haven't done, what seems like a hundred times already, it must be this way. We won't know what we are dealing with until the surgeon gets in there, and decides "how much is taken out." With that last little blurt stems much anxiety, but I keep telling myself, keep the faith, believe in that which is bigger than I. I have stated before, I am just a speck in the big picture of things. I like my "speck" to shine ... LOL ... even in these situations. Yes, I will not lie, I am anxious, I don't like not knowing. I like to see where things start, and follow them through, and I want to KNOWhow it all works along the way. When I find myself in these sorts of situations, I remove myself to some extent from the things that make me drift to dark spots. Now, don't get me wrong, I have had a living will in place for years .... LOL .... I know my risks, and the last thing I want is to leave my baby with a bigger mess to clean up than we already have here. I would like to think I will leave her better off in some ways, but neither one of us is ready to make this reality just yet. As long as I retain my "fight" I have the upper hand in my own outcome. I did make a really bad mistake this afternoon after leaving the doctor's office with my results and stopped to get my hair trimmed ..... BAD IDEA!!!! I am now ... short again .... really short. I got home, glared at the girl-child and just said, "yeah, yeah, I know ...." I guess I will be re-inventing myself again ... heheheheheh ..... it's only hair, but my vision will never come to reality until those who do this job, define "trim." Its like turning on the weed-whacker and just letting it go on its own. I have the product to make it work ... hahaha ... and with hat season right around the corner, it will be fine for a few months, and way-easy for post surgery head!!!
Ok my friends, I have a lot to accomplish before Sunday evening so I recuperate comfortably. I will post soon, and let you know how it is going. Thank you to all who send good vibes, prayers, and comforting thoughts. I very much appreciate all the love!!!!
Be well and have a wonderful weekend!!!
Peace and Light
et
... and a happy Friday!!! I didn't think this week was EVER going to end. Too much hitting this house to deal with all at once. But .... in my usual "can't keep a good...down" mantra .... hahaha...I have tried to remain positive, that although I am still at a loss as to what I am dealing with, it is basically out of my hands at this point. I got my biopsies back that were done by the GYN ... we dodged a bullet on this one as it is only "mild" this time around. Meaning that we are only at the cellular changes and stress is a known contributor ..... so I continue to breathe deep with my shoulders back. I can deal with this, and we have a couple of options in which to make it good again. I will be re-checked in 3 months.
On to Monday .... I must arrive at the hospital at 7:30 with surgery scheduled for 9:45 lasting ... approximately 60-90 minutes .... ok ... not anything I haven't done, what seems like a hundred times already, it must be this way. We won't know what we are dealing with until the surgeon gets in there, and decides "how much is taken out." With that last little blurt stems much anxiety, but I keep telling myself, keep the faith, believe in that which is bigger than I. I have stated before, I am just a speck in the big picture of things. I like my "speck" to shine ... LOL ... even in these situations. Yes, I will not lie, I am anxious, I don't like not knowing. I like to see where things start, and follow them through, and I want to KNOWhow it all works along the way. When I find myself in these sorts of situations, I remove myself to some extent from the things that make me drift to dark spots. Now, don't get me wrong, I have had a living will in place for years .... LOL .... I know my risks, and the last thing I want is to leave my baby with a bigger mess to clean up than we already have here. I would like to think I will leave her better off in some ways, but neither one of us is ready to make this reality just yet. As long as I retain my "fight" I have the upper hand in my own outcome. I did make a really bad mistake this afternoon after leaving the doctor's office with my results and stopped to get my hair trimmed ..... BAD IDEA!!!! I am now ... short again .... really short. I got home, glared at the girl-child and just said, "yeah, yeah, I know ...." I guess I will be re-inventing myself again ... heheheheheh ..... it's only hair, but my vision will never come to reality until those who do this job, define "trim." Its like turning on the weed-whacker and just letting it go on its own. I have the product to make it work ... hahaha ... and with hat season right around the corner, it will be fine for a few months, and way-easy for post surgery head!!!
Ok my friends, I have a lot to accomplish before Sunday evening so I recuperate comfortably. I will post soon, and let you know how it is going. Thank you to all who send good vibes, prayers, and comforting thoughts. I very much appreciate all the love!!!!
Be well and have a wonderful weekend!!!
Peace and Light
et
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