Hello Folks

It's October .... Dad turned 80 on the 5th. It will be two years since I lost my mom two years ago on the 27th. I can't believe it has been two years, and not a day goes by I don't miss her humor, intelligence, and good spirit. Not to mention, I think she would be so proud of what I am trying to accomplish in education, and the whole stem cell procedure. I just know she is with me in some form as I make this journey forward.

I flew to Cleveland in September for a whirlwind 3 day trip to attend my cousin's funeral service. The trip was a lot for my body to do in the short time span. I was totally exhausted for the following week. the visit, in spite of the circumstances was a rewarding experience.

Then I was back at the orthopedist two weeks ago. I think I am the only person I know who dates their orthopedist for over a year. My fracture continues to heal with good bone growth, but still swells at the end of the day, or being on it for any length of time can cause pain. Plug on .... then he injected my wrist again..... which involves the steroid factor. We all know that steroids blow blood sugar control out the window, which in turn causes the physical stress. On top of the steroid stress, 3 days later I got my flu shot. Didn't take but a couple of hours before I started with the stiff neck, achy body, etc. Then ... for the next 3 days it was up and down like a flippin' yo-yo. I was up one night with a 26 blood sugar, much thanks to Ms. Maggie. She is amazing in this respect, gets better with every occurrence, which I would really like to be relieved from. (If I was a dog, I too, would want a break). She is a wonderful animal. She is with me every moment I am with her. She seems to be catching on to the fact that Momma needs her help, and we can play too.

It has been a not so great week.... at least I think it's been a week, maybe two. There was the 26 low, with rebound that wipes me out before I even get up to get ready for work. Then after the flu shot, I was up in the 500s for a day and a half. In part, I believe, to the combination of the 2 shots, and a tissue issue with my pump. It took it's toll with me coming home from work yesterday after putting in 2 hours. Work has been stressful for me, I am overwhelmed in the work that needs to be done and no one helping me get it done for several months now since the firing of the other coder. I find it very difficult to get much else done. I am so exhausted physically that my mind shuts off at 5-o'clock. I can't possibly focus on continuing my education at the moment with everything that is going on. My house is in dire need of overhaul, yard to be cleaned up, windows to be winterized. It is overwhelming at best. Then there is the upcoming fundraising dinner which has me feeling an uncertain amount of anxiety. I know I can do this intelligently and with a sort of humor, I seem to be pretty good in that department. I am a little disappointed that with all the interest that has been peaked, not more donations are coming in. I am hoping that the exposure from the dinner will help in that department. I had a dream last weekend, more like a nightmare, really got me to thinking. After a google search of the nasty topic, it was stated that dreams of this nature usually reflect an internal anxiety, a sense of self-esteem that needs to be addressed (this is where I hear my mom helping me cope and get through a difficult situation), and then that in some cultures in represents a financial increase...... thus, my dad purchased tonight's Powerball tickets and gave them to me. Not sure I will hold my breath, but the thought was there.

Well, fall is upon us here in Arizona. It is pretty chilly here this evening. The days start out cold, warm up a little bit, and end dark and cold again. I took some time off the week of the dinner. The 11th is Veteran's Day, so I'm off, I then am taking that Friday and the following Monday. I really need some time, a couple of weeks would be nicer, but I will do my very best to focus and get some things done that need my attention. I will have a couple of days to recoup from the dinner excitement. I am going to try and have someone, other than the hopeful news coverage video tape the speeches. I really do hope to promote the science. I think being an election time, that leads me to believe that people are keeping the focus on that legalization of marijuana for medical reasons, and there is no room for stem cell talk. I could be wrong, but I am going to make it known that this is where the future is and if the US wants to regain the status of health care status, the better get their shit together. Sorry, I get so pumped up on this subject, not just for diabetics, but for anyone suffering from debilitating disease.

I was saddened to hear that KW, the woman I met here that underwent the islet cell transplant is back on insulin. I can only imagine the devastating disappointment that must have brought to her. It sort of put into perspective my feelings on my rejection from the islet trial, and the saying that all things happen for a reason. Still, I am saddened for her and the acceptance of such news and the spirit to continue on with a new goal. I hope and pray that she continues in her research and knows that she made huge strides in the future of the type one community. The knowledge that people who have undergone the islet cell transplant are heroes in my eyes!!! I hope to prove that the stem cell treatment is worthy of being done here in the US and without all the embryonic BS that politics is shooting at the people in what I feel is a propaganda campaign. Why not??? The pharmaceuticals have so much more to gain, and what better way to thin out the population than by denying treatment that works for pharmaceuticals that people on fixed incomes can't afford to start with, never mind on a monthly basis. Medication ...... food and shelter????

How would you play out a hand like that???
Something to think about.

Maggie and I are off to bed.
Sleep well my loyal supporters.

Peace and Light
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